[[**Cinderella's Moments**]]

Saturday, September 23, 2006

[[new skin. new url. new everything.]]

oh and yeahs.
i've got a new blog!!
as in a new blogskin
with new url.

but quite busy nowadays
no time to tell everyone to relink
or really publicise my new blog
but still gonna post my url here.
check it out if you want to! (:

http://sylgurl-.blogspot.com

do leave a tag there if possible! ((:

WANCHING created and blogskin using SOPHIE's codes!
thanks to you both! <33!

regarding this current blog
will it still be here?

uh that i dont know.
it all depends yeah? (:

okay that's all for now!

weirdness in me

[[Sylvia]]*|1:13 PM|

[[wishful thinking]]

endofyear's coming.
diediedie.
haven revise.
have to chiong soon.
soon.

homeworks undone.
dont think i'm gonna go online today
or probably for a short while only.

watched that mtv that rebecca filmed
it's super notnice =/
the thing just didn't match
didn't go together.

weird. just weird. everything's weirdweird.
but the weirdest thing is
i don't know what is so weird
or what causes the weirdness.
weird.

nevertheless. not going to let anything affect anything.
hurhur.
endofyear. scaredscared.

it's good to dream ; not good to fantasize

[[Sylvia]]*|12:58 PM|

Friday, September 22, 2006

[[WHAT THE HELL. CANNOT BESO ACCURATE LA!]]

OMGOMGOMG.
I FORGOT TOMORROW IS THE 23TH!
COMPLETELY FORGOT!

AS WHAT SUXIAN SAID.
IT'S NOT GONNA BE THAT ACCURATE.
QUITE LITTLE CHANCES THAT IT WIL BE LIKE THAT AGAIN.
SO DONT NEEDA CARE.

BUT YET YET YET.
THIS IS COMING TRUE!
FREAKY ISNT IT?!

SENSING THINGS WRONG.
WHAT THE!
IT'S THE THIRD TIME ALREADY LA!
I WANNA CRY MAAAN!

I AM SO SUPER AT A LOSS NOW.
WHAT TO DO WHAT TO DO TELL ME WHAT TO DO!
ARGH ARGH ARGH ARGH!

IF IT REALLY HAPPENS FOR THE THIRD TIME,
I'LL RESIGN TO FATE.
I WILL FACE THE PROBLEM STRAIGHT.

CROSS MY FINGERS AND PRAY

PRAY FOR MEEEE!

[[Sylvia]]*|7:52 PM|

Thursday, September 21, 2006

[[]]

okay. i wasnt exactly what you will say in the best-of-mood today. problems. seems alot of them. okay it isnt really problem la. it's more of emotion problems. okays. it's my own emotions mixed up ba. cant figure it out either. weird. hurhurs.

okays. school was tiring. as usual. nothing really worth mentioning. at least cannot remember la. shall start with after school. at least i can remember ((:

okays. stayed back to help gwendy's group with their lit play. ohkay uh we met them in their class at around 3. budden i went down to help chengling with hers first. okays then went up to 1/4. got this like MINI GATHERING kinda thing. keep discussing on stupidstuff.

uh wells. i being me cannot stand this kinda thing. actually i cannot stand certain things la. and frankly when i stayed there just now, i dot know why but i got the urge to break into tears. i dont know what's wrong with me la. so i kept walking in and out and in and out. dont wanna disturb them ma

so in the end i went up to 2/6. find danny ma. he was in his class doing god-knows-what. so chat with him lor. since nothing to do also. then suddenly khairi came in, so yeahs. chat wisth him also. sorta forget about all the wanna cry stuff. hurhurs.

then they were playing SOCCER in class using a waterbottle. [ oh poor waterbottle ] IT WAS HILARIOUS! khairi kicked the bottle and water splurt out! hahahhs! and even worse. danny kicked the bottle and it went flying to me!
so pain la! danny you better give me medical fees ah! and yea. i wil strongyl suggest both of you NOT to join any soccer teams next time. =/ just kidding! no offence! (:

after that we were talking about CHAPTER SIX OF SCIENCE TEXTBOOK'S stuff. imean sec two syllabus la. EWW. didnt know how we got into that topic.
then danny told us some wonderfully planned plan. yeahs. and then they sang me songs! YES THEY SANG ME SONGS! HAHAHHAS! i kept laughing! but it's nice though, the song i mean.

[[Sylvia]]*|8:36 PM|

[[tag replies]]

hahas! so much to blog about. i think i will start with replying tags first! (:

bry

"ah shucks! you should have told me ma! then i tag also! then can see my big name in your post! wasted!! XD "

i'm so nice la see. let your name appear in my post as you wished. happy anot ahh? still first one summore lehs. sighs. I AM TOO NICE LERRR. hurhurs.

Phyllis

" YOYO! Hey jie, EOY coming so JIA YOU kaes??? Dun care abt tat stinking strand of banana, ok? Oh well, if u wanna care, then i respect ur decision.... :)LOVE YA! Muackx! SMILE MORE! :) SORRY Bryan, not banana... Not you! Type wrongly... Haha.. SYL, u noe who i m talking abt rite?I think u do.. HWD=him.. YESH, HIM.. Byes! "

ahh hahas! YOYO to you my dear mei! yeahs. i wil jiayous! you too! hahas. you call that "stinking strand of banana" ? eh well. no comments. sighs. i cant seem to make up my own mind either. my very big flaw. sighs. LOLS! ya hor! bryan also known as banana. later he see anyhow think you die ah! and yes, i know who you referring to. it's not bryan but it's HWD rights? yes yes. i know that. and i know you want me to keep it a secret. rest assured. not another soul will come to know about HWD (:

appreciated.

" sumone appreciates u.in fact, a lot..you've did a lot to hlp othas..even when u yrself are feeling even worse.well, at least i DO appreciate YOU. "

thanks loadsloadsloads maan APPRECIATED! love yaaa! ((: thanks for appreciating me yeahs? and actually i didnt really did alot to help others what -.- it's just normal only la. hurhurs. would you mind if you tell me who you are? through msn sms calling face-to-face or whatsoever! pleaseeee tell me okays? ((:

Phyllis

" I agree with appreciated! :) "

hurhurs. APPRECIATED ROCKS MAAAN! ((: hahahs. i really wanna know who he/she is.

SUF

" elloooss i just realised, everytime i come, i say the same things "

hahas! it doesnt matter! so long you come and visit my blog!! that's good enough ((:

-CL]]

" BOO! im here! my ankle is finally OK! i can run le! woots! haha! & btw, ur counsellor got nice shirt man.. excludin the bck. "

hahahs! congrats maaan! finally after accupunctures and stuff! yays! oh and that shirt ah? yes i agree it's nice. not too bad la. the back also not bad maaa. dont expect so much laah. must be contented! (:

okays finished! blog about more things later if i got the time (:

[[Sylvia]]*|7:59 PM|

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

[[]]

thanks peeeps for tagging.
quite shocked actually.
hurhurs.
okays. i shall reply tags here and in a more unique manner.
i'm gonna write out what each one say and my reply ((:

firstly

bertrice

" hEys~ cheer up gurl !! =)) exmas coming le~ jus try to concentrate on studies first yah? 13yrs old indeed is a young age to bear all these burdens. you sept17 post [[it's like that]], i've been through it before~ i may not seem liek someone who has emotional probs. ha. obsatcles come your way to help you grow and be matured emotionally (: pple mihg think im crapping here cos i dont understand you difficulties~~ yeah, but tts all i can say. follow ur heart, not wad other say =) belive in urself~ Jiayou!! "

yeahs thanks for that darling (: i'm trying my best to concentrate on it le. EOY's coming. i wanna score well too. sighs. children nowdays have troubles when we're so young. deprive us of a wonderful childhood. i like your sentence. " obstacles come and help you grow and be matured emotionally " i cant agree more with that. actually by your msn nicks can sorta see you arent really happy either. but of course in school you behave very normally [ that's what everyone would do ] "follow your heart" it's easy to say this phrase out, but truthfully, i dont even know what my heart wants. hurhurs. i will try my best not to let peer influence affect me de . thanks LOADLOADLOADS!

secondly

`xiann

" my dear jie... i tok to u so long liao u still stick to de same way... haiz since dis is ur choice, i will respect de... but i m praying it'll change and u no nid so tong ku anymore ...de 17 sept thingy arr...u have fallen into the 'hunter's' trap liao become the prey alr. its all up to u to break free... den u will realy feel freed....i realy kan bu guo qu le lor one fine day i wanna bash tat person up into pulps!!! AVENGE for my darling jie who suffered so miserably!!! grrr...eh saw sth de april bd list shd have number 4 de nehxxx :D "

my darlingdarling mei..thanks for respecting my choice. hm..about changing my choice, we'll see how it goes ba. actually, if things are really possible, i really dont wanna change it. get what i mean? but dont worry for me okay? if i really really really cannot take it i will speak up for myself de. but that will be something i dont want and it'd be the very last resort la. and i'm still fine. not tongku la (: dont discribe that to be the HUNTERS TRAP laaa! not THAT bad okay! and i am so definitely not some PREYS. -.- and you're talking chimalogy, but i know it's all for my own good, i understand, really. eh and please dont anyhow go bash ah. it'll be really bad if either of you ends up in pools of blood ah. DONT do that. please. i know you wanna AVENGE me for i-dont-know-what-reason, it's good enough to know that you care, dont really carry it out okay. about the number four thinggy, i put wil be too obvious le . cannot cannot (:

thirdly

meina

" yo.wad's wrong ? you are not stupid larhs. you are born with BRAINS.mind you. "

yeahs. i know i got brains. but maybe i dont use them. maybe so. i dont know. i really really dont know. now all i can say is dont know and dont know and dont know and dont know. i will cheerup soon also. thank you so muchymuchymuch (:

fourthly

sharon

" hey.. relax larhz.. nt the whole world is scolding u larhz.. at least i m nt.. i dunno wad the hell happen to u larhz.. bt cheer up kkays?? or u can speak to someone bout it..if seriously cannot find ppl to tok bout it to, n if u dun mind miie knowing, juz speak to miie.. my ears can be reserved by u worhz.. smiles.. anyway, u nt stupid larhz.. if u r, den wad m i?? :) "

thanks for that. hhahahs. i know you're not scolding me laaah. yeahs i will try cheerup, soon, soon enough i hope. i know you're always there for me, rest assured, if one day i realyl gonne breakdown and jump or anything, i will definitely call you first :D hahahas. i may not be stupid to you, but neither am i clever. hurhurs. dont have low confidence of yourself, you're a smart as anyone else ((:

fifthly

yanru

" diao diao diao.... wad u all talking??? anw, i tagged!!! :D "

hahahahas! yeahhs. thanks for tagging ((:

[[Sylvia]]*|8:53 PM|

Monday, September 18, 2006

[[memories flash by before you......]]

to that, i got no comments.
think what you want.

[[Sylvia]]*|9:12 PM|

[[sorry, if my decision made you all unhappy.]]

okay. today i realised.
the whole world is scolding me.

yes. everyone.
i know it's for my own good la. and i dont blame them.
they scold me cause they care about me.
that i understand.

all of them was saying i'm foolish. saying i'm naive. saying that i'm making my own life miserable.

actually. i stood by my stand for a long time.
i know i am not foolish and did the right choice for a long time.
i didnt care about what others had to comment for awhile
because deep down i know i made the right choice.

so i dont really care about them scolding me stupid and stuff.
i believe i made the right choice, even up till now.

but it's like. i was thinking about this for the whole day.
maybe,
i am stupid

i dont know. i hope this is not true. like of course.
peer pressure is really causing my stand to shake.
i know it's not suppose to be like that.
but if you're me you'll understand.

you dont know how how how many of my friends are putting up a fake front infront of this thing la.
simply like everysingleone of them is constantly faking in front of this.
i really dont wanna follow la.
i mean. if i dont like someone, i will try not to talk that much, that's all.
cause it's tiring to fake la.

but well. up till now i haven really fake to be like that.
and i think i'll stand by what i've said.
if i dont like someone, i just wont talk.
not fake to like it. that's all i have to say.

i realised whatever i do it'd be unappreciated.
it's being given the heckcare attitude.
but still. laughing will make your mood better, naturally.

dear friends, i know you all care about me.
but in a way it's imposing stress or peer pressure.
for this thing, i really wanna decide for myself.
you may scold me stupid or whatsoever.
but the answer i chose will still be

to stick with what originally is.

[[Sylvia]]*|7:09 PM|

Sunday, September 17, 2006

[[more credits]]

okays. i feel bad if i dont give credits to some other people apart from cassiie.

danny.
jianshen.

both of them really cheered me up alot.
yeahs. they dont really know the whole story.
neither did they cry with me.
but they really cheered me up.
well. they never fail to do so ((:

so a big big THANKYOU to the both of you also =D

when some people always makes me cry, there are always others who cheers me up instantly.

man. how glad am i that they are there for me ((:

[[Sylvia]]*|9:59 PM|

[[do you have any idea how i am?]]

i think only cassandra knows how i feel.
truly.
i cant seem to turn to anyone else.
not you, or you.
i'm glad that cassie stayed with me.
cry with me.
it's really nice. thanks.
i love you mei <3

[ dont bother asking her. she wont tell a single thing. ]
[ dont bother asking me either. i want to forget about this asap. ]

it all happens again.

[[Sylvia]]*|9:21 PM|

[[it's like that.]]

sighs.
i dont know.
i got a feeling that this will happen today.
it's just a strong sense.

the worst feeling is not when you're crying,
it's when you're overly hurt that you cant cry.
- i've figured out that emotion today. just today.

i really dont know why is it this way.
i really dont understand.
i really dont know what's wrong.

and the worst thing
i really dont know what to do.

whatever. i didnt expect mysel to be like that.
and neither did any of you i guess.
blahs i'm crapping. not in the mood to post.

i've always said
smiling is the best way to hide your sadness

but i dont have the will to hide it now

[[Sylvia]]*|8:15 PM|

Thursday, September 14, 2006

[[haiishh]]

sigh sigh sigh.
so sad, for them la
for him actually.
i dont know how to help.
or what to help le.

just take just now as example.
when we're going home.
he followed.
she shunned.
it's really sighsighsigh la

i guess a pair's ending off here.

[[Sylvia]]*|5:00 PM|