--trrue frenzz--

new skin. new url. new everything.

2006-09-23T13:13:00.000+08:00

oh and yeahs.
i've got a new blog!!
as in a new blogskin
with new url.

but quite busy nowadays
no time to tell everyone to relink
or really publicise my new blog
but still gonna post my url here.
check it out if you want to! (:

http://sylgurl-.blogspot.com

do leave a tag there if possible! ((:

WANCHING created and blogskin using SOPHIE's codes!
thanks to you both! <33!

regarding this current blog
will it still be here?

uh that i dont know.
it all depends yeah? (:

okay that's all for now!

weirdness in me

wishful thinking

2006-09-23T12:58:00.000+08:00

endofyear's coming.
diediedie.
haven revise.
have to chiong soon.
soon.

homeworks undone.
dont think i'm gonna go online today
or probably for a short while only.

watched that mtv that rebecca filmed
it's super notnice =/
the thing just didn't match
didn't go together.

weird. just weird. everything's weirdweird.
but the weirdest thing is
i don't know what is so weird
or what causes the weirdness.
weird.

nevertheless. not going to let anything affect anything.
hurhur.
endofyear. scaredscared.

it's good to dream ; not good to fantasize

WHAT THE HELL. CANNOT BESO ACCURATE LA!

2006-09-22T19:52:00.000+08:00

OMGOMGOMG.
I FORGOT TOMORROW IS THE 23TH!
COMPLETELY FORGOT!

AS WHAT SUXIAN SAID.
IT'S NOT GONNA BE THAT ACCURATE.
QUITE LITTLE CHANCES THAT IT WIL BE LIKE THAT AGAIN.
SO DONT NEEDA CARE.

BUT YET YET YET.
THIS IS COMING TRUE!
FREAKY ISNT IT?!

SENSING THINGS WRONG.
WHAT THE!
IT'S THE THIRD TIME ALREADY LA!
I WANNA CRY MAAAN!

I AM SO SUPER AT A LOSS NOW.
WHAT TO DO WHAT TO DO TELL ME WHAT TO DO!
ARGH ARGH ARGH ARGH!

IF IT REALLY HAPPENS FOR THE THIRD TIME,
I'LL RESIGN TO FATE.
I WILL FACE THE PROBLEM STRAIGHT.

CROSS MY FINGERS AND PRAY

PRAY FOR MEEEE!

2006-09-21T20:36:00.000+08:00

okay. i wasnt exactly what you will say in the best-of-mood today. problems. seems alot of them. okay it isnt really problem la. it's more of emotion problems. okays. it's my own emotions mixed up ba. cant figure it out either. weird. hurhurs.

okays. school was tiring. as usual. nothing really worth mentioning. at least cannot remember la. shall start with after school. at least i can remember ((:

okays. stayed back to help gwendy's group with their lit play. ohkay uh we met them in their class at around 3. budden i went down to help chengling with hers first. okays then went up to 1/4. got this like MINI GATHERING kinda thing. keep discussing on stupidstuff.

uh wells. i being me cannot stand this kinda thing. actually i cannot stand certain things la. and frankly when i stayed there just now, i dot know why but i got the urge to break into tears. i dont know what's wrong with me la. so i kept walking in and out and in and out. dont wanna disturb them ma

so in the end i went up to 2/6. find danny ma. he was in his class doing god-knows-what. so chat with him lor. since nothing to do also. then suddenly khairi came in, so yeahs. chat wisth him also. sorta forget about all the wanna cry stuff. hurhurs.

then they were playing SOCCER in class using a waterbottle. [ oh poor waterbottle ] IT WAS HILARIOUS! khairi kicked the bottle and water splurt out! hahahhs! and even worse. danny kicked the bottle and it went flying to me!
so pain la! danny you better give me medical fees ah! and yea. i wil strongyl suggest both of you NOT to join any soccer teams next time. =/ just kidding! no offence! (:

after that we were talking about CHAPTER SIX OF SCIENCE TEXTBOOK'S stuff. imean sec two syllabus la. EWW. didnt know how we got into that topic.
then danny told us some wonderfully planned plan. yeahs. and then they sang me songs! YES THEY SANG ME SONGS! HAHAHHAS! i kept laughing! but it's nice though, the song i mean.

tag replies

2006-09-21T19:59:00.000+08:00

hahas! so much to blog about. i think i will start with replying tags first! (:

bry

"ah shucks! you should have told me ma! then i tag also! then can see my big name in your post! wasted!! XD "

i'm so nice la see. let your name appear in my post as you wished. happy anot ahh? still first one summore lehs. sighs. I AM TOO NICE LERRR. hurhurs.

Phyllis

" YOYO! Hey jie, EOY coming so JIA YOU kaes??? Dun care abt tat stinking strand of banana, ok? Oh well, if u wanna care, then i respect ur decision.... :)LOVE YA! Muackx! SMILE MORE! :) SORRY Bryan, not banana... Not you! Type wrongly... Haha.. SYL, u noe who i m talking abt rite?I think u do.. HWD=him.. YESH, HIM.. Byes! "

ahh hahas! YOYO to you my dear mei! yeahs. i wil jiayous! you too! hahas. you call that "stinking strand of banana" ? eh well. no comments. sighs. i cant seem to make up my own mind either. my very big flaw. sighs. LOLS! ya hor! bryan also known as banana. later he see anyhow think you die ah! and yes, i know who you referring to. it's not bryan but it's HWD rights? yes yes. i know that. and i know you want me to keep it a secret. rest assured. not another soul will come to know about HWD (:

appreciated.

" sumone appreciates u.in fact, a lot..you've did a lot to hlp othas..even when u yrself are feeling even worse.well, at least i DO appreciate YOU. "

thanks loadsloadsloads maan APPRECIATED! love yaaa! ((: thanks for appreciating me yeahs? and actually i didnt really did alot to help others what -.- it's just normal only la. hurhurs. would you mind if you tell me who you are? through msn sms calling face-to-face or whatsoever! pleaseeee tell me okays? ((:

Phyllis

" I agree with appreciated! :) "

hurhurs. APPRECIATED ROCKS MAAAN! ((: hahahs. i really wanna know who he/she is.

SUF

" elloooss i just realised, everytime i come, i say the same things "

hahas! it doesnt matter! so long you come and visit my blog!! that's good enough ((:

-CL]]

" BOO! im here! my ankle is finally OK! i can run le! woots! haha! & btw, ur counsellor got nice shirt man.. excludin the bck. "

hahahs! congrats maaan! finally after accupunctures and stuff! yays! oh and that shirt ah? yes i agree it's nice. not too bad la. the back also not bad maaa. dont expect so much laah. must be contented! (:

okays finished! blog about more things later if i got the time (:

2006-09-19T20:53:00.000+08:00

thanks peeeps for tagging.
quite shocked actually.
hurhurs.
okays. i shall reply tags here and in a more unique manner.
i'm gonna write out what each one say and my reply ((:

firstly

bertrice

" hEys~ cheer up gurl !! =)) exmas coming le~ jus try to concentrate on studies first yah? 13yrs old indeed is a young age to bear all these burdens. you sept17 post [[it's like that]], i've been through it before~ i may not seem liek someone who has emotional probs. ha. obsatcles come your way to help you grow and be matured emotionally (: pple mihg think im crapping here cos i dont understand you difficulties~~ yeah, but tts all i can say. follow ur heart, not wad other say =) belive in urself~ Jiayou!! "

yeahs thanks for that darling (: i'm trying my best to concentrate on it le. EOY's coming. i wanna score well too. sighs. children nowdays have troubles when we're so young. deprive us of a wonderful childhood. i like your sentence. " obstacles come and help you grow and be matured emotionally " i cant agree more with that. actually by your msn nicks can sorta see you arent really happy either. but of course in school you behave very normally [ that's what everyone would do ] "follow your heart" it's easy to say this phrase out, but truthfully, i dont even know what my heart wants. hurhurs. i will try my best not to let peer influence affect me de . thanks LOADLOADLOADS!

secondly

`xiann

" my dear jie... i tok to u so long liao u still stick to de same way... haiz since dis is ur choice, i will respect de... but i m praying it'll change and u no nid so tong ku anymore ...de 17 sept thingy arr...u have fallen into the 'hunter's' trap liao become the prey alr. its all up to u to break free... den u will realy feel freed....i realy kan bu guo qu le lor one fine day i wanna bash tat person up into pulps!!! AVENGE for my darling jie who suffered so miserably!!! grrr...eh saw sth de april bd list shd have number 4 de nehxxx :D "

my darlingdarling mei..thanks for respecting my choice. hm..about changing my choice, we'll see how it goes ba. actually, if things are really possible, i really dont wanna change it. get what i mean? but dont worry for me okay? if i really really really cannot take it i will speak up for myself de. but that will be something i dont want and it'd be the very last resort la. and i'm still fine. not tongku la (: dont discribe that to be the HUNTERS TRAP laaa! not THAT bad okay! and i am so definitely not some PREYS. -.- and you're talking chimalogy, but i know it's all for my own good, i understand, really. eh and please dont anyhow go bash ah. it'll be really bad if either of you ends up in pools of blood ah. DONT do that. please. i know you wanna AVENGE me for i-dont-know-what-reason, it's good enough to know that you care, dont really carry it out okay. about the number four thinggy, i put wil be too obvious le . cannot cannot (:

thirdly

meina

" yo.wad's wrong ? you are not stupid larhs. you are born with BRAINS.mind you. "

yeahs. i know i got brains. but maybe i dont use them. maybe so. i dont know. i really really dont know. now all i can say is dont know and dont know and dont know and dont know. i will cheerup soon also. thank you so muchymuchymuch (:

fourthly

sharon

" hey.. relax larhz.. nt the whole world is scolding u larhz.. at least i m nt.. i dunno wad the hell happen to u larhz.. bt cheer up kkays?? or u can speak to someone bout it..if seriously cannot find ppl to tok bout it to, n if u dun mind miie knowing, juz speak to miie.. my ears can be reserved by u worhz.. smiles.. anyway, u nt stupid larhz.. if u r, den wad m i?? :) "

thanks for that. hhahahs. i know you're not scolding me laaah. yeahs i will try cheerup, soon, soon enough i hope. i know you're always there for me, rest assured, if one day i realyl gonne breakdown and jump or anything, i will definitely call you first :D hahahas. i may not be stupid to you, but neither am i clever. hurhurs. dont have low confidence of yourself, you're a smart as anyone else ((:

fifthly

yanru

" diao diao diao.... wad u all talking??? anw, i tagged!!! :D "

hahahahas! yeahhs. thanks for tagging ((:

memories flash by before you......

2006-09-18T21:12:00.000+08:00

to that, i got no comments.
think what you want.

sorry, if my decision made you all unhappy.

2006-09-18T19:09:00.000+08:00

okay. today i realised.
the whole world is scolding me.

yes. everyone.
i know it's for my own good la. and i dont blame them.
they scold me cause they care about me.
that i understand.

all of them was saying i'm foolish. saying i'm naive. saying that i'm making my own life miserable.

actually. i stood by my stand for a long time.
i know i am not foolish and did the right choice for a long time.
i didnt care about what others had to comment for awhile
because deep down i know i made the right choice.

so i dont really care about them scolding me stupid and stuff.
i believe i made the right choice, even up till now.

but it's like. i was thinking about this for the whole day.
maybe,
i am stupid

i dont know. i hope this is not true. like of course.
peer pressure is really causing my stand to shake.
i know it's not suppose to be like that.
but if you're me you'll understand.

you dont know how how how many of my friends are putting up a fake front infront of this thing la.
simply like everysingleone of them is constantly faking in front of this.
i really dont wanna follow la.
i mean. if i dont like someone, i will try not to talk that much, that's all.
cause it's tiring to fake la.

but well. up till now i haven really fake to be like that.
and i think i'll stand by what i've said.
if i dont like someone, i just wont talk.
not fake to like it. that's all i have to say.

i realised whatever i do it'd be unappreciated.
it's being given the heckcare attitude.
but still. laughing will make your mood better, naturally.

dear friends, i know you all care about me.
but in a way it's imposing stress or peer pressure.
for this thing, i really wanna decide for myself.
you may scold me stupid or whatsoever.
but the answer i chose will still be

to stick with what originally is.

more credits

2006-09-17T21:59:00.000+08:00

okays. i feel bad if i dont give credits to some other people apart from cassiie.

danny.
jianshen.

both of them really cheered me up alot.
yeahs. they dont really know the whole story.
neither did they cry with me.
but they really cheered me up.
well. they never fail to do so ((:

so a big big THANKYOU to the both of you also =D

when some people always makes me cry, there are always others who cheers me up instantly.

man. how glad am i that they are there for me ((:

do you have any idea how i am?

2006-09-17T21:21:00.000+08:00

i think only cassandra knows how i feel.
truly.
i cant seem to turn to anyone else.
not you, or you.
i'm glad that cassie stayed with me.
cry with me.
it's really nice. thanks.
i love you mei <3

[ dont bother asking her. she wont tell a single thing. ]
[ dont bother asking me either. i want to forget about this asap. ]

it all happens again.

it's like that.

2006-09-17T20:15:00.000+08:00

sighs.
i dont know.
i got a feeling that this will happen today.
it's just a strong sense.

the worst feeling is not when you're crying,
it's when you're overly hurt that you cant cry.
- i've figured out that emotion today. just today.

i really dont know why is it this way.
i really dont understand.
i really dont know what's wrong.

and the worst thing
i really dont know what to do.

whatever. i didnt expect mysel to be like that.
and neither did any of you i guess.
blahs i'm crapping. not in the mood to post.

i've always said
smiling is the best way to hide your sadness

but i dont have the will to hide it now

haiishh

2006-09-14T17:00:00.000+08:00

sigh sigh sigh.
so sad, for them la
for him actually.
i dont know how to help.
or what to help le.

just take just now as example.
when we're going home.
he followed.
she shunned.
it's really sighsighsigh la

i guess a pair's ending off here.

HAHAHAHAS

2006-09-12T20:45:00.000+08:00

okays quite tired now.
but yeahs. posting, for awhile.
and to DO WHAT I'VE PROMISED

[ here it goes !! ]

BRYAN IS A CUTIE PIEEEE!!!

everyone here. please take note of this.
and if possible please tell more people about it =DDD
thank you for your kind attention.

- SPREAD THE CUTIE PIE NEWS! -

_________________________________________________

secondly. thanks to everyone who tagged! LOVE YAAAAA ((:

okays this time round i shall reply tags here. dont want to flood my tagboard unneccessarily (x

sakinah! - THANKS SO MUCH! hurhurs. it's just a blogskin. nothing much actually. and come back often to tag yeasss?? =DD

sm! - YOYOS! hurhurs. yeahs my msn cannot sign in also. that was yesterday. now can le. i suppose urs also? =)

-CL]]! - YO MY DARLING JIE! hurhurs. i will i will i will. will change. but not now laaah. lazy to find blogskins =/ and it's okays, no problem about the logging out thing =D

Priscilla! - YAY THANKS! hurhurs. <33!

evangeline! - HAHAHAS! eh not exactly about drama and choir thing la. but abit about drama. hurhurs. i think i shall tell you more next time =DD

van! - COPY ME DE LORHS! unfairrrr laaaa! ask around! WHO WILL SAY I'M CRAZY?! [ when i'm not ] i'm so de..NORMAL okaaaays! you're the CRAZY AND CRAZY AND CRAZIERR ONEEE! ;Pp

DannyD3v!L! - WELCOMES BROTHER! [ i didnt know there's someone who wants to be crazy so much ] hurhurs. thanks for acknowledging me as your HOTTEST FRIEND also. but i dont want to be that. bleahhs. ^^

aiimee! - YAY! we all keep promises ((: okays about my post. it's not really about quitting drama to join choir laaah. tell your cassiie jiejie dont worry. i wont quit just yet xD

SUF! - HELLOS! heeees! thanks for tagging =DD eh i tagged you to do the quiz! you have to do arhhhs! :D:D

xinyi! - HEHES THANKS! yeahs i'll take that into consideration also. thanks for advising and always always tagging ! alldabest to you too! <3!

xiuhuuui! - EH HELLOS HOHO! =D rights i'll check for the updated info on your blog. come more often :D:D:D

HURRAY! THANKS TO ALL THESE DARLINGS FOR TAGGING!
hurhurs so happy! ((:

I SHALL TAG AT THE BLOG OF ALL THOSE WHO TAGGED AT MINE FROM TODAY ONWARDS!<333>

perspective

2006-09-11T19:21:00.000+08:00
i dont know what is wrong with msn today.
cant sign in, so using windows messenger instead.
wells nevermind. it's nice also. not too bad at least.

gonna make a stupid post again.
recently quite troubled by stuff.
[ but again i didnt show it out ]
rights it's not really that troubled.
i'm just a little, you should say, puzzled?

puzzled over things. many things
i guess that's what everyone has to go through in life eh?

wondering if i should quit something
wondering if i should join something
different people told me to do different things
everyone with different perspective
what's mine?

i dont know.
i really dont know.
that's why i'm troubled rights.
i'm indecisive. very much.
cant make decision. nono i cant.
that's me

well i think the only way now is to let nature take it's course
what else?
and somemore endofyear exam's nearing.
cant let these things affect me rights.

oh and i realised loads of you are reading my blog and not tagging.
then after that you'll come and ask or comment things on my blog to me personally
hurhurs.
maybe that's the way you all feel more comfortable with. i dont know.
but i seriously do hope you all can leave a print ((:

and to those that tag, especially those consistent ones.
really really really thank you
it's really nice =D

it's turning dark
the sun's set
the moon and star's out

but the weather is just as cold

quiz time!

2006-09-09T23:55:00.000+08:00
sigh sigh sigh. saw on three blogs.
CHENGLING'S
VANESSA'S
MEINA'S
tagged by the three to do this quiz. argh. no escaping i guess. rights. here we goooooooo!!!

1.Full Name: Sylvia Koh Kia Ying
2.Name Backwards: gniy aik hok aivlys ( OMGOSH! )
3.Were you named after someone? : HEH?! No larhs!
4.Meaning of name: i guess i didnt bother about that ((:
5.Nickname: too many. Rights i'll name some. KIAKIA ( eh like i want to be called that like that. *pukes* but SOMANY people calling la! ) SYL ( online shortform la. But syazwan calls that at times -.- ) SKJEWELERY ( loads call that ) SALIVA ( i dont know HOW i got that this ) * still have loads more but it'd be too long to finish saying laa *
6.Stage Name: i am not some actress or super star laaah. Puhleaseee!
7.DOB: 09 March 1993
8.Place of Birth: KK hospital, Singapore
9.Nationality: Singaporean!! =D
10.Current location: My house? study room? hurhurs.
11.Starsign: pisces ( i always daydreamm )
12. uh no twelve?
13.Height: 155 ( sigh sigh. can i grow taller maan! )
14.Weight: 45 ( can i be lighter maaan! )
15.Shoe Size: 6 ? i think =D
16.Hair Color: black and darkbrown
17.Eye Color: darkbrown and black
18.Who do you look like? hurhurs. i like alotta people lehs. i LOVE them laaah =D
19.inner or outtie: huhhh??
20.lefty or rightie: rightrightright
.21.Gay/bi/straight or others? LOLS! straight la! duhhh~!
22.Best Friends: Phyllis, Rebecca and Suxian =D of course there's more. this are the main three laa
23.Best Friend you trust most : Phyllis, Rebecca, Suxian, Chengling, Cassandra and more to come =D
24.Favourite pals: Chengling, Cassandra, Meina, Yanru and moremoremore =D
25.Best friend of opp sex: ehh. my gors and dis ba =DD
26.best buddies: woahs. alot laaa. you all should know =D
27.boyfriend/girlfriend: nopes ((:
28.crush: uh i'll let you know ;Pp
29.Parents: love both of them ((:
30.Enemy: tiring to hate someone. so not at the moment. and hope none to come
31.Favourite online guy: Bryan, Danny, Jianshen ( eh arent they my god sibs? hurhurs ) of course got more. but dont wanna name ;)
32.Favourite online girl: Phyllis, Suxian, Rebecca, Meina, Yanru, Chengling, Cassandra and moremoremore of course!
33. huh? no question again?!
34.Craziest friends: Abraham, Danny, Frederick, Yeowpeng * all guys eh? * ( to van : I AM NOT CRAZY OKAYS! YOU CRAZIER MANYMANYMANY TIMES MORE! xD )
35.Advise friends : Chengling, Phyllis, Suxan, Rebecca
36.Loudest friend: Phyllis ( oh you dont wanna hear her shout )
37.Person you cry with: Chengling once. in sch once after literature play with the three best friends.
38.Sis: no biological, but loads of godsibs =D
39.Bro: no biological either, but gors and dis yeah (:
40.Pets: nono. i'm scared of them =/
41.Any diseases? : not that i know of. carelessness ?
42.Pager: uh who uses them nowadays?
43.Personal phoneline: hurhurs. hp?
44.Cellphone: yeahs. want the number? ask me laah! =D
45.Lave lamp: HEH?
46.Pool or hot tub?: pool so common. hot tub better!
47.Car: you gimme license first laah!
48.Personality: slow. absentminded. careless. ( ask my friends laaah! )
49.Driving? : i told you i dont have a liscense!
50.Dream car: eh no specific brand lehs.
51.Room: mmhm. but it's so super messy =x
52.What is missing? : sighs. too many le larhs. but have to be contented! ((:
53.Schs: PAP kindergarten. * LOLS * Xinmin Primary , Anderson Secondary
54.Bed: uh huh. woo i cant live without it
55.Relationship with parents: what about it? lols. not too bad larhs =D
56.Believe in yourself: have to right! who else can you believe in?!
57.Believe love @ 1st sight: yeahs. but i dont think i'll ever love someone at first sight. hurhurs.
58.Good listener: i assume i am. well who cant listen?!
59.Get along well with parents? : yeahs. everyday have to face them lehs. have to get along lah!
60.Save msn conversations? : i wont save on purpose. but have msg history de ma.
61.Pray: yeahs. at times.
62.Believe in reincarnation: HUH? naah i'll reach nirvana! =D
63.Make fun of people: *shocked * haiiyohs nonono. i ALWAYS SO NICE. why will make fun of people?!
64.Likes talking on phone: sorta ((: i can spend hours on it
65.Want to get married: what a question. well not now. so young!
66.Want to drive? : drive arhs? eh we'll see how it goes on
67.Motion sickness: i dont think so
68.Eat stem of broccoli: umm yeah.
69.Eat chicken with fork: depends laah.
70.Dream color: i love all colours. at different times.
71.Type in ur fingers in home roll: uh meaning?
72.Sleep with stuffed toys: yupps. i have loads by my side =D
73.Next to you now is a: erms. a koala bear stuffed toy?
74.Walls of your room: light purple with pink
75.On your mousepad: uh i dont like mouse pads
76.Dream car: eh enough about CARS la! i cant drive!
77.Dream date: how can you control a dream?! see how things goes lor
78.Dream honeymoon spot: haiyo i not even married think about honeymoon!
79.Dream husband/wife: -.- how to dream of any?!
80.Bedtime: it changes from day to day
81.Under your bed: nothing la. floor lor
82.Single most important questions: *question marks *
83.Bad time of the day: when nothing is fun
84.Worst fear: when i'm sick
85.The weather: finefine so fine
86.Time: 11.52
87.Date: 10th sept.
88.Best trick did on someone: ha i cant remember
89.Theme song: i dont have theme songs. hurhurs
90.Hardest time of growing: everday's a hard day for me
91.Funniest experience: too many to be listed
92.Scariest experience: i dont compare which is more scary
93.Silliest thing i have said: i am silly.
94.Most despo & funniest thing i hav said in front of de opp sex: eh i dont record em down
95.Scariest thing when you are with your friends: cant remember
96.Worst feeling: negative feeling's the worst
97.Best feeling: uhuhuh. times with your loved ones?
98.SIX MORE TO DO THE QUIZ! heehees!
-Phyllis!!
-Cassandra!!
-Wanching!!
-Sufang!!
-Yanru!!
-Angie!!

YAY done! hurhurs. gotta rush. buhbyees!

oh haha haha haha

2006-09-07T19:06:00.000+08:00
haha . oh haha . oh so funny haha .

when you say haha. do you really mean it?

i duno. it just comes to me to type this. i just realised it after talking to people.

haha. i heck care la. ohoh. so cold. haha.

been talking to chengling jie and changing our personalmessages.

hahas! so funn! ((: and we got this thing in us that's so cool

heehees! yay chengling rocks! hees ((:

i dont wanna believe in anything that you say

cause it's all fake.

EXCUSES

2006-09-07T17:21:00.000+08:00
from today onwards. i decided all my weird weird posts will be done in a weird weird way. and they will be super long. cause i realise people dont read long posts. in anycase. yeah. in a general way. so no questions further questions will be entertained.

have you all heard lame excuses? oh haha. i bet everyone here has. it's so common larhs. and i seriously hate those. it's like. if they have something that is troublistic ( oh haha ) to them, might as well just tell the truth. what's the point of giving excuses thinking that people will take believe that it's the truth?

at times when people know that particular persons are giving excuses, they wont tend to break their act. meaning when someone gives me an excuse, i will just shut my mouth and really pretend that i think it's the truth larhs. so when people doesnt tell you that they know it's an excuse, dont think that they dont know it's a lie, much lesser that their stupid.

i personally here has encounted such incidents a few times. i obviously know that it's a stupid excuse that the other party used to get to what he/she wants, but i chose to stay ignorant to them. it's like. people are forced to their end so as to give you an excuse derhs. so i didnt actually break their act larhs.

symtoms of excuses
1) the reason is usually very lame or unlikely to happen.
2) before the excuse part, the words said by the person will be very heck care or anxious to end the conversation
3) before the main excuse was brought forward, you wil sense the person already trying a little to end the conversation. it's mere unlucky that he/she didnt.
4) when the excuse is said, it'd be rather abrupt and it just POP outta nowhere. ( but you can sense that it's long been prepared already )
5) when you agreed to end the convo, the other person will be rather happy tried to take as little time as possible to end the conversation.

oh well. it's just what i've observed. and i dont understand why cant people just end the convo by " no topic to talk about lehs. see ya. " or stuff like that. i know it may sound rather hurting. but that person can be tactful at his/her speech de marhs.

i rather the ugly truth than the pretty lie

eggcellent day

2006-09-06T20:20:00.000+08:00
hahhas. today's council camp was generally fun. very i should say (: shall post everything here!

i reached school and started off the day by playing captains ball. hurhurs. yeahh was quite fun larhs. sec ones versus sec twos. we were outnumbered! but well. i didnt really care about the score. what matters is that we have fun rights! (:

then we went on to L2, starting our camp, with lectures first. conducted by mrs allison lim, miss shamila, miss goh, mr yeo. i was in RED team. together with meishan, yokekwan, adlyn and fatihah. hurhurs. we called ourselves the UNDERWEARS! LOLS. no reasons attached (: hm.. not too bad i should say. we started off with the teachers introducing themselves and the comittees and excos. and the various groups - connect , outreach, scc, sprint, sprout and what each group is suppose to do. then we went on to evaluate on teachers day. it's sort of like a case study kind of thing. so yeahh. we thought of them. then they randomly picked groups to answer. and each point is worth a mark (: ( oh ya. we're earning points for each of our team. the winner at the end of the day will win a prize )

our group didnt do really well in this area. didnt really got chosen to speak. so the points there also lag behind. second part was conducted by miss goh. what makes a good councillor we're suppose to name out the qualities that a councillor should have and talk about how can we do to possess them. urgh. normal lectures. as usual points are given to groups who answers. and as usual. our group didnt do that well either ): but nevermind =D

then we went for our games session. the first game was a spider webby thing. we are suppose to get to the other end of the spider web that they tied using raffia string without touching the strings. for every member that pass through successfully, 10points were given. our group tried and tried and tried and we got FIFTY POINTS! meaning all of us passed! ((: hiphiphurray!

then we went to L1 for the second game. it's URGH I CANT REMEMBER THE NAME. but it has something to do with casualty. one player from each group is suppose to be the casualty and the other player has to carry him/her across through the obstacles without touching the floor. and ya. the casualty cannot move at all times. meishan was our casualty. it was so funny! we moved her through the obstacles made by tables and chairs. and she cannot move so we carried her. we had to go pass things and go under things. it's super tough okay!

okay then we went to have our lunch. we paid $2 for chicken rice. okays la. not bad quite nice. eat lerhs changed to darkcoloured clothes. gotta play some wet games after lunch. and i saw alotta people. people from sjb, ncc, netball, badminton. ( as far as i can remember ) then i talked to phyllis awhile. not that bad. few days never see her lerhs. miss her lerhs. hahahas.

then wnt on to L2 for the second part of the lecture. it's conducted by miss shamila with the topic of birds weird ehs? it's fun larhs. it's like the DISC personality test like that. just that they changed the things to the different kinds of birds.quite nice larhs. hurhurs.

then mr yeo's public speaking. quite bored. cause i dont like public speaking. please la. i can never do de lorhs. so scary to me la. i dont like larhs. then adlyn represent our group to erms. be our representative for public speaking. so proud of her larhs! she was so pro. =DD thanks!

again. not free. so update more again.

tomorrow. sixth sense tells me it's disastrous.

2006-09-03T23:22:00.000+08:00
okays.
tomorrow.
sighh.
i tell you here.
something's gonna be wrong.

they will make sure something will go wrong derhs.
trust me.
things wont turn out fine

nevertheless.
it's too late to say anything.
i chose this route ; i'll accept it

everytime it's like that. i really dont want things to be not right larhs.
but i dont haf a choice maan
things dont go according as wished.

tomorrow.
we'll see how it is.
i'll tell you how badly it goes.
~~things wont be good when fire and water clashes~~
and i haf to be the one who's burnt by fire and drowned by water.
at the same time

i really dont wanna know how tmr goes on

clarifications. posting just to make myself better.

2006-09-02T23:27:00.000+08:00
sigh.
i knew something is gonna be wrong.
from the first moment i heard both of you all going out.
something's bound to be wrong.
it is like that de larhs.
i mean. with this girl(s) bosong-ing this guy
definitely things wont go on smoothly derhs.

i cant say this in public. but i cannot stand it nemore.
what is wrong with this guy that made you all dislike him so much?
and you guys can be unhappy with this guy and offend him.
end up, i'm the one suffering.
i'm always in the middle.
what can i do?
stand with who?
and i have to be super careful with my words. not to hurt both parties.
what to do? that's life.

i have to be nice to you all. and listen to both parties' unhappiness about things
for goodness sake, i am suppose to treat both parties equally.
both suppose to stand the same amount of place in my heart.
it's hard being impartial.
and both of you all giving me same amount of stress okay.
it's hard to even communicate la.
i haf to be very nice with my words and stuff.
if not later people start being angry and things like that.
(even acting, that is. it's hard to cheer people up)

talking about cheering people up.
that's even worse.
recently everyone around me seems to be down.
i dont know why.
everyone seem to be sighing or just angry with someone.
and i cannot seem to make them happy.

it's not just one or two.
it's more than that
i've tried my best to you know, try to make them happy
evenwhenimfacingproblemsmyselfandsonotinthebestofmood
someone who's super pro in this kinda things,
teach me.
what do you say to people that are sad/angry?
i'm a super gonecase when it comes to this.
i can never cheer people up, that's what i realise.

it's supertough. what else can you say apart from,
"eh cheer up lehs. dont think about it larhs."
or
"it's not worth it lorhs. dont be like that."
iie dunno.
i've tried on alotta people who arent in good moods
sad, anger, jealousy, or purely bad mood
and i cant drive them back to the right track.

maybe, sometimes when you cant cheer them up in the normal cheering up way,
you can try to change the topic.
uh well. i dont know.
but it's worth a try
probably changing of topic will will make them forget about the unhappy stuff.
i'll give it a try the very next time and tell you how it goes.

sometimes, it's tough.
everyone had their sad times
this is understandable.
even me, i am not as happy as i may seem to you all.
it's just a chose to put on a smile.
why?

firstly,
smiling can make you forget your unhappiness
temporary, and slowly to long-term.
i've tried it. it works wonder.

secondly,
do you know that by being sad
you're not the only one suffering?
people who love you and who cares suffer also.
sometimes maybe even more than you do
would you even bear to make them sad?
make them sad cause of you?
dont you feel guilty?
someone who loves you so much and in return you repaid them with sadness.
so much for their love, it's not fair to them.

thirdly,
if you shut your mouth and not tell others
probably you'll forget it soon.
i know it's always good to haf someone there, willing to lend a ear
but at times, it's better to keep things to yourself
not for anything,
but solely because you dont want to be reminded of that incident too much,
needless to say trouble that lovely person whom you know cares.

conclusion.
i always try not to let those around me know when i'm unhappy.
it'd affect their mood, and in turn affects mine as well.
if you love those around you, would you even bear to see them sad bacause of you?
just because of that,
people who are closer to me are always the ones who dunno what's wrong with me.
there's always a reason why i dont want to tell you all.
and that's cause you all are far too precious to me (:

uh well.
i decided to post this cause i've been wronged too many times.
far too many.
and it's hard for me to carry on this way.
letting you all think i dont care about you all
so i guess i'll try to make things a lil clearer to all those who happen to see this post.
it's not i dont wanna tell you all, it's cause i dont wanna affect your life.
it's just not worth it lah.

people may think i'm silly or whatsoever for thinking this way
but i dont care.
i know i'm not
and that's that.
my blog is usually the place where i write my true feelings
and everything about the real real me.
there's a meaning behind my every post.
it's just whether you can decipher it
many a times people cant.
they do it the wrong way.
sometimes, it's not what you see.

it's what you think it is

so much to do ; so little time

2006-09-02T13:29:00.000+08:00
such a filled hols.
yupps. filled.
loads and loads and loads of hmwk to be done
yes. ALOT.

decided to use the chionging method to complete them
but apparently i'm still infront of my comp.
addiction, that's what i call it.

days of my hols taken away.
tmr going to chalet.
some uncles had it for my cousin who's 21
well. happy birthday then

monday going to kbox.
uh well. most probably.
after going for my eng proj with menghong meina guowei.
hope i'll be there on time.
uh that will be a miracle
quite looking forward
but now something's wrong with my throat
i cant seem to sing the right keys
uh nevermind. what harm can it cause?
~~i'll just cut down on the number of songs i'll sing~~

tuesday sorta promised xiuhui to go for the council dance practice
she tagged at my blog what! :D
so yet another day, gone.
wednesday, sighhh
councilor camp.
totally NOT looking forward to it
~~dunno what weird stuff they'll ask us to do~~
=/ srry for not supporting

friday going back for the dance also
going back twice lorhs
siann diaoos
cos it's like all the way from 12 - 5
LONG RIGHT!
see how. ~~maybe not going on friday~~ :D:D:D

bwahahas! got the urge to go wildwildwet.
heees sudden crave
shall ask daddy to bring cousins and i there (((:
well, we'll see how it goes on ^^

shooo much to do
shooo lttle time

time

weird

2006-09-01T18:26:00.001+08:00

people always say
treat everyone equally
but...can i?

bias-ness is unavoidable
people always tend to spend more time with the people they love more.
people who means more importance to them.
but many a times.
these people dunno they mean alot to them.
at least. they rarely do.

what does the word concern means to you?
have you ever wonder why people worry bout you?
or why you worry about people?
because we all care.

basically.
today in a very mixed mood
dont care about this post.
it's crap.
i post. and i 'll forget everything.
i haf stm.

freaking mood.

2006-09-01T13:37:00.000+08:00
ihateyou.
yes. just cos of onefreakingsentence you said.
ihateyou.
okay. you both.

you think what? you very good like that.
good in all those things so can criticise others.
okays. i'm not as good as you.
neither are the rest.
but humility. i doubt you know it larhs.

go on.
go around scolding others.
noob noob noob. go on larhs.
i dont care. i care nomore.

jealous. and it sucks.

2006-08-31T17:34:00.000+08:00
YAY! happy teachers day dear chers! ((:

okays. went to sch early today. daddy brought me there.
downnpourrr~~ so heavy rain!
okays then we slacked around.
then further instructions was to standi in front of the sch and dance the aces dance
wth!
i wasnt even there for the past pe lessons of aces dance larhs
which also means i duno how to dance larhs!
how to teach?!
but well. they said we can just stand there and follow the teacher onstage
so yea. tried lorhs

okays. horrible.
it was AKA the BANGLA DANCE
and i never know why until today
it's so the BANGLA la okays!
all the dance steps so funny!
i was LMAO when dancing
:D

did it for both the lower and upper sec
so spastic la!
but well. it's always the spasticness that makes things fun rights?

oh well. had athe teachers day concert.
and i sorta had fun
monica and aliya were the emcees.
not bad. they were very pro! (:

then it's SCHOOL DISMISS!
hurhurs! going to pri sch. so happy larhs!
skipped some parts..
blahblahblah
met priscilla and went eating at hgpoint with her
yupps. usual hangout place
forgot mrs junari's present. left it at home =/
so went back to take it
by the time i went back
it's like 12+ lerhs
alotta people there lerhs
so happy to see them larhs!

miss them loads
6hummers!
beverley.! peiwoon.! wanching.! sufang.! darice.! joey.! karina.! yensiu.! sophia.! melissa.! meyer.! jinglin.! yuxin.! athira.! nasuha.! aishah.! shabana.! priscilla.! michelle.! sharon.! velda.! adele.! kangsoon.! edmund.! joshua.! kajun.! youliang.! shazani.!
YAYNESS! saw like 28 outta 39.
other 11. sighh. hope to meet up in the near future! ((:

other than that met loads of juniors and other classes de friends.
omg. so overwhelmed larhs.
and saw teachers like mrkhoo and linlaoshi and mrsjunari and mdmho
yeah. this are the four teachers that i bought gifts :D
of course. i met lots more!
they are so evereverever niceeeeeee~!
:D :D :D

bond around. then went over to heartland mall with yensiu velda sophia jinglin and darice.
ate there walk around. then moved on to compass point.
saw suxian jianshen gwendy clint there
two pairs arhs. LOLS ((:

grah to suxian.!
she was like shouting KIIAAYIIINNNGGGG in compass point okays!
SO MALU!
so loud la
everyone staring at us like that larhs!
hmph suxian i dont friend you! ;Pp

then i went home.
i shouldnt haf open that conversation box of yours.
without seeing that picture maybe my mood will be happier for the night.
but well. i know there's no hiding from things if it's predestined.
even if i dont open it. eventually i'll see it someway or another.
haf to learn to face up to facts.
=D learning and trying to let go (:

now i'm not in the best of mood.
dont feel like talking or anything.
dont come to me now. i dont wanna hurt you.

watermelons and honeydews

2006-08-30T19:59:00.000+08:00
hahahhas!
today went sch lerhs
managed to stay there till the end
phew!

okays.
fast forward everything
to HOME ECON
we were digging out flesh of honeydew and watermelon
scoop them into balls and you know. it' like those decorations
okays. we were SCOOOPING and SCOOPING and SCOOPING
so boring la k!
but it was nice to eat at first
eat more le so tired of it larhs!
so we made TANG2 SHI1 ( tang poems )

*ahemm*
XI1 GUA1 SOAK ZAI4 XI1 GUA1 ZHI1
MI4 GUA1 SOAK ZAI4 MI4 GUA1 ZHI1
XI1 GUA1 BU4 SOAK MI4 GUA1 ZHI1
MI4 GUA1 BU4 SOAK XI1 GUA1 ZHI1
*translation*
watermelon soak in watermelong juice
honeydew soak in honeydew juice
watermelon dont soak in honeydew juice
honeydew dont soak in watermelon juice

LOLS!
-.-
okays. it's not that funny..

okays. i no mood to blog now. blog what happen today like..tmr? LOLS
okays. TATA DARLINGS ((:

oh well. i've never recovered.

2006-08-28T11:16:00.000+08:00
grah.
i duno what am i doing in front of the comp now
yes. i am sick
once again.
okay maybe not once again
i never recovered actually =/
from last tues up till now
i am still feeling unwell.
it's just the DEGREE of unwellness

~~i hate myself~~
why cant i get well?
what is wrong man.
i am forever giddy and having headache and such
and unable to concentrate well
always nausea
and my limps are weak
they cant seem to support me
it's been a week already
and i'm still like that.
what.is.wrong.

i want to go to sch like normal
but i cant.
i've been coming home twice within a week.
sort of been missing three days of lesson from last tues to now
it sucks okay!
i haf to trouble my parents and make them worry
keep disappointing my friends when they wants me to get well.
loads of lessons that i missed. and EOY exam's coming.

sometimes i really wonder
what.exactly.is.wrong.with.my.body
why am i so weak all of a sudden?
weak and yet i dunno what is wrong
i dont even know what am i down with.
doctor said it's migraine
but the medicine she gave doesnt seem to help me
it's merely painkiller
it doesnt cure anything

been talking to my auntie and she mentioned that my cousin used to be like that when she was young
she used to come home from sch complaining of headache and giddyness
she went to the doctors( polyclinics )
and they keep telling her it's just normal headache.
prescribed loads of panadols to her.
stronger dosage each time she went
but it doesnt help her either
she grew so fed up that she went to a private docs
they did checkups and what is wrong with her?
LACKOFBLOOD
not some headaches or anything. and obviously PANADOLS cant cure them
from then on. my cousin hated polyclinics
( oh ya. i went polyclinic )

i've troubled alot of you.
mum who took super good care of me.
dad who has been fetching me to and fro sch
rebecca for listening and being so nicee and understanding ( and sorry for not being able to complete ur filming): )
phyllis for taking my bag down and agreeing to take my homeworks
suxian for being there for me and cheering me up
jianshen for coming down with me to the G.O.
okay. and really everysingle one of you who cared about me by smsing or calling me.

now i can only pray hard barhs.
hope it's lack of blood
i mean. i'd rather want that than some serious or terminal disease.
i think i'll be going to the doc later on before going hg point to get my hmwk from phyllis.
and yes. i hope i'll be well enough to go there.
gotta do some blood test later on.
all the best for my result.
and PRAYFORME! ((x

hahahas!

2006-08-26T21:05:00.000+08:00
oh well i'm bored.
dunno why. just bored
like there's nothing
simply NOTHING okay!

went over to sharon's house to watch the film -Sorry Teacher-
yea. i bought it.
cause MICHELLE IS ACTING IN IT
nono. not just some extras okay!
it's like one of the main characters!
cool right!
so proud to haf a friend like her larhs ((:

that show.
i duno how to say larhs
probably that i am too emotional
but i cried.
oh yes i cried.
i dunno larhs
touching lorhs.
quite touching larhs
tears just flowed
sniffsniff):
grah. haf to learn how to control em in the future

wanching's making a blogskin for me!
so happy happy happy!
yay wanching you rock maaan!
iloveloveloveloveloveyou! <33

currently chatting with danny
with a crap topic
he is telling me
HIS VOICE CAN CURE CANER
what crap!

okay i needa go
TATA!

being sick sucks!

2006-08-23T08:23:00.000+08:00
sighhhhh
sick sick sick sick sick
grrarrhhhhh!
vomit and vomit
head pain pain
hands that tremble by itself
giddy giddy

BEING SICK SUCKS.

argh. missed two days of lesson
PE. Chinese. Math. Home econ. CME
English. Chinese. Music. Art.
NINE LESSONS OKAY!
hope there wun be anymore.

BEING SICK SUCKS.

haf to go for jap later on
CA5 maaan
hope i'll be well enough later on.
if not this term it's a ZERO for my jap lehs!

BEING SICK SUCKS.

gonna miss drama also
argh! cannot see them perform!
fri'll be the last chance to see it.
must must must must MUST be there

BEING SICK SUCKS.

everything around me is blurrified.
everything i see and even my thoughts are.
yesterday i was looking at a clock that rites " 10.43 "
though i can see it. my brain cant seem to process out the time.
weird eh?

BEING SICK SUCKS.

thinking of the loads of things i missed.
two days lerhs.
recuperating so i can go tmr.
i really hope i can.
provided if i stop vomiting.

BEING SICK SUCKS.

and those of you who are so so so so so so nice to actually asked how i'm feeling
thanks so so so so much!
i'll be going to the docs later on.
dont worry too much (:

in chronological order ( as far as i can remember )

- Rebecca ( for calling me and taking down notes and stuff. not to mention accompanying me )
- Suxian ( for giving me advices and accompanying me during flag raising )
- Phyllis ( taking my bag and telling me the stuff u all did )
- Cassandra ( the first to sms me after scha dn expressing loads of care )
- Danny ( chatting with me for awhile when i was damn bored )
- Bryan ( took the trouble to call inspite of busy schedule. oh ya. and singing too )
- Minyi ( the sweet and unexpected sms )
- Meina ( for comforting me and encouraging me )
- Jianshen ( remembering that his mei is sick and even called )
- Afiqah ( taking the effort to ask me to recover fast )

i know i missed out some. but thanks loads to you all too!

BEING SICK SUCKS.

but i'll be fine soon.

wordwordwords

2006-08-20T09:30:00.000+08:00
saw this mail
seems quite interesting
decided to put it up for everyone here

The most selfish 1 letter word - I - Avoid it
The most satisfying 2 letter word - WE - Use it
The most poisonous 3 letter word - EGO - Kill it
The most used 4 letter word - LOVE - Use it
The most pleasing 5 letter word - SMILE - Keep it
The fastest spreading 6 letter word - RUMOUR - Ignore it
The hardest working 7 letter word - SUCCESS - Achieve it
The most enviable 8 letter word - JEALOUSY - Distance it
The most powerful 9 letter words - KNOWLEDGE - Acquire it
The most essential 10 letter word - CONFIDENCE - Trust it

yea that's all.
just here to make a quick post.
off now. wanna eat my apple.
=D

tiiredness

2006-08-18T21:25:00.000+08:00
feeling.so.weak.now.

after drama no energy.
so yea. went to eat mac first.
with cheng
then took temperature
haf fever
haiiish

smsed suxian
i went
"suxian. i got fever."
then she was like
"omg. u go home. dont bathe with cold water. dun chui feng. wear a jacket to sweat. prepare a water bottle and keep drinking."
YAYNESS
mei so nice nice nice nice nice! ILOVEHER!
so listen
SUXIAN
U ROCK MY WORLD! ((:

miracles do happen

2006-08-15T21:01:00.000+08:00
today was so bad at the beginning.
but so..NOT BAD in the end
hahahs. dont make sense?

well actually. in the morning i was like thinking of what i haf today.

-i haf to get back my eng functional writing
-i haf to get back my MATHS common test, and that's a real terror.
-i haf to hand in my drama script by TWO if not i'll be disqualified for the play writing competition. and the worst part is, IDIDNTEVENFINISHWRITINGIT
-i haf to help rebecca with the filming of her MTV for her CCA.
-i haf to go for the freaking third language.

SOMANYMANY right?!
i was like..SOSTRESSEDOUT larhs!
but well. things changed for the better.

-eng functional was not too badly done. quite contented ((:

-math common test. oh yea. in my past post i mentioned that i only did TWENTYFOURMARKS worth of questions right? and the thing is. I REALLY GOT ALL TWENTY FOUR MARKS! and i think God answered my prayers. Mdm Hee found a question that is not in our syllabus and added TWOMARKS to everyone! 24+2=TWENTYSIX! so happy! i passed~! YAY!!

-for the script. you wouldnt believe it. but yet ANOTHER miracle happen. it turns out that sec ones are not qualified for this competition as the FIRSTRULE of it is.."ENTRANTS MUST BE IN ONE OF THE AGED CATEGORIES AS OF 1JANUARY2006" ( or something like that) i mean. how many people can u find that has their birthday right on 1january? so yea. the sec ones didnt participate. though i did my script. mrs kamal said leave it for next year then((:

-the filiming was fine EXCEPT for the outfit i was assigned to wear by my two darling producers, rebecca and yanning ((: i haf to be dressed in this totally white kinda wear. a white top and a white dress. suppose to be real pure and innocent i think. but too bad i dun fit into that category.

-so yea. third lang. that was the only notsonice thing of the day i think. cos i was really very tiired larhs. and summore still got a test aka quiz kinda thing. so wasnt really paying much of attention. and i didnt complete my hmwk! so naughty right? lols. erms. was actualy hoping she wont ask me to ans tough tough jap question kinda thing. and really. i was so tired!

wahhahahas. in the end today was generally fine. not too bad for a predictedtobebad day

upcoming events.
learning journey tomorrow!
air force museum from 2.00-4.30.
dunno. think will be quite boring =/

SPA and music on thurs!
yea. two tests coming up.
lucky small tests. dont really needa study alot
lazy le marhs! ;Pp

that's all i think. feeling so tiired after a long day.
and i haven done my hmwk =x
okays. off now. wanna sleep early.
cos i miss my pillow =D

i regret. i really do.

2006-08-13T21:14:00.000+08:00
omg. why did i do that?
dont understand either
and the worse part is
after i do that
i regret
throughly.

i told myself to u know. dont care le lorhs.
but i cant.
wth.
nevermind
i shall control myself

once again
i regret.

oh how nice.

2006-08-12T19:49:00.000+08:00
right.
that's what u say

but when u know i'm referring to u in my previous post
hurhurhur
it's a total different story.

gr8 i'm stuck in this.
stuck. cant move.
and you still dun understand what i mean.

forgeddit. u never understand.
u'll never do.
given ur insensitivity.

and oh yea.
it isnt the least bit comforting.
it made me feel worse.

now. i dunno what to do either.

never thought you'll do this to me

2006-08-12T17:01:00.000+08:00
It's OVER
It's GONE

finished. vanished. BYEBYE!

dont ask me why. u drove me into this.
madness.
yes. right. MADNESS
i'm MAD
CRAZY and ANGRY
both.

ask me why? dont bother.
ask me what? forgeddit.
ask me who? never expect me to tell..
cos it's YOU

again and again and again and again and again.
again and again and again and again and again.
again and again and again and again and again.
again and again and again and again and again.
again and again and again and again and again.

it's like this neverendingcycle
on and on and on and onnnnnnn
iamsosickofit.

time and time my heart breaks.
time and time tears fell.
( ok. it isnt really that bad. ~.~ )
heart didnt really break. tears didnt really fall.
it's just internal struggle.

but i've decided.
why shd i care about you,
if you dun care about me?

simple logic. and so many people told me lerhs
" dont care about it la. " " let him/her solve his/her problem him/herself larhs."
" u do so much he/she also wun appreciate" " why make urself so pitiful? "
so so so many of my best friends told me to let it go lerhs.
but i still clung on
cling cling cling
finally. after reading that few paragraphs of words
especially that line
"** *** **** * **** **** **** ****"
i awoke
i understood why so many people ask me to dont care about it lerhs
why so many people ask me to say NO to him/her lerhs
i understood everything
but i dun feel good at all.
betcha only cassandra understands what that sentence is.

suddenly. it all struck me.
drove me into a wild and insane mood.
and i'm filled with anger and grieve
disappointment.

what i can say is.
life still goes on with or without you
and i wun allow myself to feel unhappy cause of u
it's just not worth it

i need peace tonight
not gonna reply anything.
gonna anti myself against the outside world
just me, alone.
hopefully i'll feel better

this is a huge obstacle for me to pass.
i HAVE to overcome this
whether i like it or not
whatever the future holds for me
i'd gladly take it
only if my future doesnt have you in it
cos u've broke the deep trust i haf in you
and it hurts.

i love my meis now more than ever. they are always there for me.
thanks so much
i dunno what to tell u all
but thank you
you all are the most amazing thing that happen to me
MUACKS <333

oh ya. dont ask me what this post is all about if u dun understand.
i wun tell.

-in the midst of forgetting all the memories i haf with u-
-it's hard. but i know it's possible-

^ moving on in a life without u ^
cos

i never thought you'll do this to me.

inferiority

2006-08-11T22:04:00.000+08:00
today. another friday.
another day i dread

first lesson - science

got our test. it's not as easy as i thought it'd be
so yea. didnt really do as well.
some question tikam tikam derhs.
hope to get an A though (:

second lesson - eng changed to literature

yes yes.. got our lit test today.
miss lee changed our supposingly eng lesson to a lit one for us to take the test.
well, to say the paper wasnt THAT difficult
but i heard frm abraham that i got a 10
TEN UPON TWENTY OKAY?!
just pass. OMG. didnt really thought i'd score so badly!
but what's over's over. work harder the next time barhs(:

recess

for recess, miss lee let us off earlier.
she know we got test later on
SO GOOD RIGHT?! ^^
went down and helped atc with the selling of tickets for the AM I play
basically, i'm just repeating myself with some same old things larhs
now i can memorise le lorhs
THIS IS A QUALITY PLAY AROUGHT OVER TO AUSTRALIA
BUY IT NOW AND IT'S ONLY FOR FOURDOLLARS INSTEAD OF FIVE.
and some added on craps here and thr
feel very sinful. never watch the play then i went to say.
THE PLAY IS VERY NICE
~.~

third lesson - computer enrichment

CE today was cool.
we handed up our flash mx and started surfing the net.
went to tag at blogs and read them.
and slacked around in the AIRCON room
~COOL~

fourth lesson - mathematics

the time that i dread most. mathematics time
took our common test
AND I FAILED IT
okay. this isnt some humble talk frm some hypocrites
the fact is
I
FAILED
THE
MATHEMATICS
TEST
outta 50 marks de question
i only completed 24marks worth
and i mean COMPLETED
meeeaaaanninngggg
IF i dun haf careless mistakes ( which is like SO IMPOSSIBLE)
i will get TWENTYFOURMARKS = one mark before the passing mark
so it's a CONFIRM FAILING for me
dunno why after finish test the mood not that bad.
it's only now that i started thinking about it again
then feel quite sad about failing it.
~WAAA~
but well.
it's over
it's gone
it's the past
FORGET ABOUT IT ^^

drama

dramaaa was not that bad today
compared to other times larhs
started with doing this breathing thinggy
gotta lie on the floor and breathe in deeply kinda thing
it's very relaxing worrhs =)
after that read the marryatville's script
aka the AM I play
saw the seniors acting out the whole play
the rough idea of it
and i must agree
some of them, their acting is PERFECT
it's totally very nice larhs!
love their acting skills <3

oh ya one thing
THAT PLAY IS FANTABULOUS!
it completely plays with our emotions
one moment u can be holding on to ur stomach and laffing ur ass off
another moment u can be trying to stop ur tears from flowing out
that IS how that play is.
serious.
NO EXAGGERATING!
and summore it's revolving around our lifes.
so it can be very easily understood by us.
ANDERSONIANS ATTENTION!!!
hurry go buy that ticket before it's too late.
i STRONGLY recommend that play larhs.
guarantee to be a nice one! ^^

end of the day. the big conclusion i made was
I HAF TO IMPROVE MYSELF
studies. relationships. drama. EVERYTHING!
( short term goal will be for my mathematics! )

gampatehhhh! i can do it xD

YAY~!

2006-08-08T22:52:00.000+08:00
yayy! spent two fun-filled days!
monday and today!

monday
class decided to go for the tattoo idea
tattoo on ur hand
( they dun wan put on face marhs )
me suxian yanru tamryn went all over the place to look for the tattoo
we went amk jubilee
looked thru all the shops
got alotta nice smelling BA GUAAA though
but NO TATTOOS

so off we went. to bishan junction8
we went around searching like mad people.
cos time going at super speed marhs
saw olivia and her friend thr
talked abiit
then continue our tattoo hunt
went to NTUC
( though abit funny to go thr and look for tattoos )
cant find tattoos but saw four girls from 1/4
they went thr to find stuff for elderly home visit
crapped with them abit also.
but STILL cannot find the tatoos.
HOW?!

dinah said she saw them at bugis market before
so we went thr to see. for any luck
we walk and walk and walk
FINALLY
FOUND IT
SO HAPPY RIGHT?!
* three cheers for us! hip hip hurray! ^.^ *
but the quality not that good larhs
and summore
for four tattoos
it's TWODOLLARS
one tattoo = FIFTYCENTS
over our budget larhs!
tried to bargain with aunty
no avail
so we started using the
WE FORGOT TO BRING ENOUGH MONEY trick
and in the end
SLASHSLASHSLASH
total price is $18 instead of $20
at least saved abit for the class(:

we went back to sch. cos bags were still there
when we were on the MRT. this super funny thing happen la
this lady here.
she wore her shirt till very the OBSCENE i shd say
can see the AHEMAHEM larhs ( she was sitting down )
then this guy here
he was staring at her AHEM larhs
slanted vision from the side
then actually we wanna tell that lady de lorhs
but it's damn weird to go
EH I THINK I CAN SEE UR AHEM LEHS
~.~

so ya. we kept our mouth shut
but this guy. YUCKS LA
he kept looking and looking and looking
i cannot stand it le larhs
so i shouted
CHEAP!
=x
then they were staring at me and giggling
i mean. whatdahell
guys are so cheappos! hmph
but still. the whole thing very farnee larhs(:
laffing all the way in the train

went back to sch. then yea. slack awhile.
( damn tiired la. walked for so manymany hours )
then went to hgpoint with suxiian before going home
actually wanna find ribbons. for national day celeb
but cannot find! so yea. went home.
to SUXIAN'S home i mean

ate my dinner there. YUMMYUMMM
then we discussed abit bout tmr.
and called the class to rmb to wear red/white teee
it's very tedious larhs. but still. we managed!
thanks cerlyn for helping too <3>

feeling SOFINE SOFINE SOFINE!

2006-08-04T22:28:00.000+08:00
YIIIPEEEEE
four ordeals of friday = OVER!
SO HAPPY!
x)

finished english functional writing and history paper.
okay barhs. not that bad.
then went for ATC
so happy again! one hour only!
then after that slack around. all the way till like 6 plus
then went home larhs.
this is very basic summary of course

so happy again! it's the weekend~
two days without sch
and next week only study two days!
COOL RIGHT?!

rebecca and suxian coming over tomorrow.
doing some proj work and recording of stuff
=x shant say much here
closer people shd know what i mean. =p

okay la. i supertiired lerhs.
but still very happy!! (:
til next time. TATA ^^

ouch.! did u ever care about how i feel?

2006-08-02T18:42:00.000+08:00
dont pull a rubber band too hard, when it snaps, the force will be great.
-that's what i learnt today
( once again. thank you suxian for being there for me(: )

forget about that le la.
not point clinging on to something that is of the past.
yes. past.

no matter what i do = useless
i tried lerhs. no avail.
suan le.

today was amazed at how things can change so fast.
just a sudden thought la.
it hurts.

gone = finished = never to be back again
will you be back?
hope so.

waiting for you is like waiting for rain in this drought- useless and disappointing
i am disappointed enough already
really enough.

i know that things are gonna be okay
they are going to?
absolutely not.

free me from all these
u think possible?
straight no.

ps. dont ask me what i meant.
i wun ans anyone.
not anyone.

cruelty

2006-07-30T22:12:00.000+08:00
i came to the conclusion
the harsh and cruel one

-u dunno me-

truely. u dun understand me la.
well. at first i thought u do.
at first i thought i understand u too.
but it turns out.. i'm wrong

i cannot be more wrong.
i thought u do
but u dun
i thought i do
but i dun

sudden depression hit me
thank goodness i got people like danny, phyllis and suxian online.
cheered me up alot
thanks maaan. wouldnt know what to do without u all(:

okays. i'll make this entry short.
no mood to continue.
nights.

it's too late. it's all too late

2006-07-28T21:21:00.000+08:00
hellos again
yayy~~!
okay. i got like so so so much to blog about.
that i dunno how and what to start with

firstly. i wanna thank someone
really really really thank someone
but in any case
i shall keep this person's identity a secret ;Pp
( perhaps u urself shd know barhs)

-to YOU-
thanks so so so so so much for helping me thru this
i remember i was really really down and you talked sense into me
u made me feel better
u made me understand that it's nothing
u made me understand that all that i've done is NOT WORTH it
u made me realise my mistakes and that people don only haf me, got other choices.
u made me know that i cannot be softhearted

thanks alot. really. and u tried ways and methods to cheer me up and to constantly remind me on what i should do and not. and u took ur precious time and sat with me at the bus stop until like 7plus when u know that i dun feel like going home. you counselled me and really really make me happier ALOT(: i'm really glad that i know someone like you. you are really SUPERNICE. ILOVEYOU! ;)

okay next
i realise right
once the moment is gone
nothing u do will make it back
it feels weird la ( okay this sentence rebecca's gonna understand it best. i tell her this everyday )
it feels very very very very weird lorhs.
i also dunno why
just very weird
it just isnt the same le la
the way i feeeel la
it's diff lerhs
everythng can make everything diff de larrhs

-tobecontinued-

short replies

2006-07-22T20:42:00.000+08:00
haiish
wil be a long time before i can chat with u all
cant use the comp for quite awhile
just wanna make a quick post

if someone sms u SHORT REPLIES
for goodness sake DONT REPLY
cos short replies can only mean two things
1) that person dont wanna talk to u
2) that person is busy

either one means u shdnt reply what
right?

okay. basically. i'm crapping.
see you all some time lateron
buhbyees for now!

*it's really disappointing*

2006-07-16T13:11:00.000+08:00
yesterday went out with suxiian
actually intended to train for the 2.4 run at hougang stadium
budden dunno what happen
thr got some funny funny events
some carnival i think
then xiian and i went away lorhs

we actually wanted to go to serangoon junior college
( thr got stadium so thought can run there)
budden when we got there
the security say
ONLY AVAILABLE IN THE WEEKDAYS
WEEKENDS CANNOT
so *siiigh*
we went off lorhs

went to
went to
went to the playground
* i know that's childish larhs*
played at the swings
then sat there and chat lorhs
xiian said she wanna come my house
then come lorhs
LOLS

we went online
then watched a few movies that are in my comp
actually just watched partly of the movies la
cos of time constrain ma
surfed the net
blablabla lorhs

finally we went out
i went to hougang mall to meet wanching
suxiian went home. gotta help her mum dye haiir
so we had our separate ways lorhs

met wanching
ate longjohnsilvers with her
long time never go out with her lerhs
we just walked around hg mall
spent most of the time chatting
LOADS of things to catch up on
xD

around 2+
we went to Stevens tuition centre
yong guan dawin and zhicong had their tuition then
went in there
then we purposely walked outside their classroom
see their expression
very de unfortunately
their tuition teacher saw us
so we just RUNNNNNN

waiited till their tution over
then yong guan gimme belated birthday present
REAL BELATED HUH
frm 9march drag all the way to 15july
but anyway. he stil got give what
so think shd thank him here

*to yong guan*
thanks for that candle that u gave
i really wanna see the message in it
but it's far too preciious to be burnt away
so i think i will leave it as it is
thankkkks! XD

okay. continue on what i did yesterday
then wanching and i stil went in to hg mall
just walk around one more time
cos wanching got tuition at 3.30
eh. iziit oxford or nova?
oxford right?
doesnt matter anyway
then i sorta went home lerhs
went online
chatchatchat all day
surf net
all those lorhs
boring boring derhs
but well. that's all.

i realised u changed once again.
i didnt want to show it out in the fear that it's just my imagination
i dun understand euu
every moment u haf a different attitude
it's tiring trying to guess it and accomodate with it
and jealousy - that is the worse feeling in the world
i find it hard to talk to u
there is something in between
but what?
that is something i wanna know too
it's just very xinku for me everysingleday
can these just end?

-i've tried. and i failed-

~amazing friday~

2006-07-14T22:42:00.000+08:00
today
drama cancelled
me and suxian decided to go out and eat
go near xinmin there
met bryan so took 72 tgt
in the bus i kept laffing.
abit siiao i think
hurhurs

then suxian and i went to xinmin sec
she suggested to go in
cos wanna see how it is ma
then saw jinglin outside xinmin sec
so got in with her help
surprised that security didnt stop us
so went in lorhs
suxian saw her friend
ryan
he took us around the sch la
just to see see only
thanks for being our tourrr guiide!
xDD

then went to eat at the coffee shop
ate chicken winnngs and drank lemon barleyyy
then saw yong guan and zhicong walking towards us
pretended not to see them
lucky they recognise me
if not i so gonna kill them lorhs
then saw darwin yiwen they all also
so so so long neverr see them le lorh

then well me ad suxiian feeling bored. so went to the bus stop
then waiitted for them to go hommeee
gotta meet them tomorrow at hougang mall
then we sat at the void deck
nothing to do.
realised our books stil with bryan
so asked him come out
did nothing actually
just slack only
i know. SING SONGGG
then talk talk lorhs
after that?
go home lerhs

all these baaa
then came online lerhs
just chatted and chatted lorhs
what else??
okay. post again next time.
sayonnaraaa! =D

quiizzyyy tiime.

2006-07-08T19:20:00.000+08:00
Got these as emails. it's about answering quizzes.
feel like posting them up in my blog. then no need to reply le ma.(:
READY STEADY
HERE WE GOOOOOO!

1. Starting Time: 19:43
2.Full Name: Sylvia Koh Kia Ying
3.Best Friend(s): love all of them
4.Sexiest Friend: as what everyone else said. SHAFEEQ!
5. Funniest Friend(s):alot lehs.
6. Smartest friends: everyone is smart in their own ways
7. Dumbest Person: =XX
8. Shyest Friend: dont haf shy de la
9. Most boring person: better keep my mouth shutt(:
10. Who Do you get advice from: from everybody i know. mostly closer ones.
11. Height : 155 i suppose.
12. D(ate)O(f)B(irth):9 March 1993
13. Righty / Lefty : Right right right!
15. Shoe Size : 6 i think.
16.Shoe Brand: i think billabong's cool.
17. Do you Crack any Body Parts: dont think so. not yet i mean.
19. Siblings: i am the oldest and the youngest child in the family.
20. Email Address: onlimi_sk@hotmail.com
21. Boy Friend/Girl Friend: nopes.
22. Crush: think i'll tell you?
23. Liked a Teacher: i like almost all teachers. =)
25. Hope the person you send this to would reply: i am posting this thinggy on my bloggie.
26. Ate a Tub of Ice Cream: small tub yes perhaps. those super small ones.
27. Ran Into a Glass Door : yep. i was in my cousin's house and i ran STRAIGHT into her balcony's sliding door. when i was young i mean. but nothing shattered. :D
29. Gone Skinny Dipping: what's that? i think not ba.
30. Nearly hit by a car: yep. loads of times. i am very prone to accidents.
31. Ran into a speeding car: not in real life. but in those racing cars in arcades. -.-

Girls Fill Out About Guys
35. Boxers or Briefs: who cares about that?!
36. Tall or Short : taller than me wil be good. that isnt tough.
37. Does size matter: not too extreme ones la.
38. Six-pack or Muscular Arms: muscular arms to hugg meeee. LOLS. justkidding!
39. Body or Personality: personality will be better.
40. Ear Pierced or Not : i dun really like those with pierced ones. make them look so like gays.
41. Sporty or Outdoorsy: both will do just fine.
42. Good or Bad guy: good ones i suppose.

Guys answer abt girls.
47. G or hipster undies: -
48. Tall or Short: -
49. Long Hair or short : -
50.Dark or Light Eyes:-
51. Light/Dark Hair: -
52. Body or Personality:-
53. Ears Pierced or Not: -
55. Good Girl/Bad Girl: -
56.Hair Up or Down : -
57. Sporty or Classy : -
58. Chicken or Not Afraid : -

Which One is Better
59. Coke or pepsi: the taste the same to me.
60. K.F.C or Mcdonalds: fries of mac. chicken of KFC
61. Cats or Dogs : woofwoof seems better
62. Coffee or Tea : depends on my moood
63. Eastside or westside: huh?? u wanna know for whaaat?!
64.Vanilla or chocolate: chocos rocks my liffeee!
65. Cake or Cookies: sometimes cake. other times cookies.
67. Sunset or Sunrise: sunRISE. it siginifies the starting of a brand new dayy!
68. Day or Night: i love both the sun and stars.
69. Lights on or off : ON. i dun like darkness
70. Summer or Winter: summer's sun and beach is my fave. winter's snow and cold makes me gaze. LOLS

YOUR FAV...
71. Food: loads of them. i eat and eat and eat.
73. Holiday destination: hawaii? ALLOHA
74. Radio Station: tune in to SYLVIA RADIO STATION.!
75. Place: my hommeee. and somewhere where i can br aloneee.
76. Will you believe in God: most of the time.
77. What you want to be when you grow up: me ar? i got loads of amibitions lehs. haven finalise.
78. Define Love: LOVE is a feeling that comes with chemistry. u cant force it to come or go. it is free. but it might cos pain at times.
80. Favourite Place: you asked me that lerhs!
81. Favourite day(s) of the week: Fri evening and sat!
82. Who Is Least Likely To Send This Back: i told you i am putting on my blogg.
83.Satan or God or atheist: GOD OF COURSE. btw what's atheist?
More questions
84. Do you love someone right now: yes or no. i am confused too.
85. Do you care about someone: SOMEONE ar? lols. of course i care about SOMEONE. jkjk. i care for almost everyone la.
86. Do you think of someone everyday: SOMEONE ar? frankly no. but there is some other ppl that i think of everyday though.
87. Are you confused of your own feelings? : everytime. i cant control em. end up that they are always the one leading me.
88. Finishing time: 20.06pm
89. Date: 8 july 2006

DONE. 23 minsss! gtg nowww. TATA!

it's all coming back again.

2006-07-08T15:45:00.000+08:00
yesterday was Tamaryn's birthday
HAPPIE BIRTHDAY GURL!
went to j8 with tam. phy. xiian. becca. and jane for celebration
took neos. and bought a photoalbum for her
then i left. -.-
sorry guys. i will very much love to stay on.
but i really really cannot skip drama.
CCA lehs. it's a must.
really sorry for leaving early

then i took MRT to AMK
realised i forgot how to walk back
-.-
i mean. temporary forgot la.
so many ppl rushing by. suddenly forgot everything.
luckily was on the fone with cheng
she came to fetch me
LOLS
bry came too. just that he zapped me frm behind.
GRRR

went for drama.
at two when everyone can go home at twelve
had different tasks for us to do.
painting boxes and cubes
packing props and stuff
scrubbing the MPS floor
measuring cloths for the makings of cushions

started with painting of cubes
had this square for us to paint it black
so paintpaintpaint
after we finished
haf to clean the rollers
me sakinah and afiqah went to the toilet and
FULL BLAST AT THE TAP
an auntie saw us getting nowhere
so she volunteered to help us
she used a spraying thinggy and it sort of speed up our job
but mrs kamal's instruction was
WHEN WASH THE ROLLER
U MUST SEE CLEAR WATER RUNNING THRU THEN IT'S CONSIDERED DONE
we washed and washed and waited and waited.
still no clear water
after around like thirty mins
we got fed updecided to name it MISSION IMPOSSIBLE
so got up back to the art room lerhs

me and cassiemei had nothing to do.
so went to help our senioes in cutting the cloth.
and they cannot get the measurements right
then we sat there and TRIED to help.
but i think not really helpful larhs.
;Pp

then we went to MPS to help the srcubbing of floor
WOOHOOO~
AIRCONNNED
we scrubbed and played and talked la
mrs lee asked if we wanna go for a speak good eng movement by hoosen leong( is that how u spell his name?)
oh well. he is that guy in inotstupid with the role of BEN. who is jackneo's office partner.
she mentioned that we haf to perform in sch after the training course
it's a good opportunity la
actually feel like going de
budden got third lang. then stil got so much studies to do.
dun really feel like adding on to the pressure le
carmina eugene abraham harris cheryl and minyi volunteered to go though.
next time can sit back and watch their performance lerhs!
:D

feeling quite depressed yesterday
cassie said i looked pale when i was scrubbing the floor and lost in thoughts.
some stuff la
told cassandra
we were sitting at the staircase
then talking and talking
sort of feel better after that
thanks cassie
u talked sense into me
not to mention cheer me uppp=)

after that. time went ZOOM
we can be dismiss lerhs
budden gotta help clean the sink and stuff lidat
blablabla
OKAY DONEEEE
wanted to go home with minyi
but she wasnt ready yet
so sat down outside 1/3 class with cassandra and chengling
watching carmina abraham harris and eugene play soccer

i sat there
started thinking and thinking and thinking
suddenly tears filled my eyes
it was uncontrollable la
they just keep flooding
luckily something distracted me
then woke me up from my thoughts

reluctantly i went home lorhs
met minyi and bryan at the busstop
took 72 with them
minyi kept eating chocos and behaving hyper
lols
*as usual*

went home much better lerhs.
bathe and calmed down le ba
yep. erms. that's about all ba.

i hate pessimist.
i hate it
i hate my life.
i hate myself.

-troubled-

syf 06' weet-ot-weet

2006-07-02T11:56:00.000+08:00
yesterday went to syf 06' in the national stadium
with 1/2 1/4 and 1/6
on the way met meiina.
then saw more and more ppl outside sch.
all of us went to 7-11 ( it's a store and more. DINGDONG)
bought some kind of apple juice.
then some stupid ppl there keep looking at me.
one to be exact
i cant stand euu la
ever since sch reopen til now lehs.
'let it go'
sorry. i cant do that maan.
natural human instinct.
i stared back.
*bleah*
;Pp

not gonna let this spoil my mood.
but well.
i damn angry la.
i mean.
wadthehell lorhs.
gaaaaah
whatever

then we took our attendance.
board the bus with 1/6 ( not enough bus larhs)
sat right at the back of the bus.
blahblahblah
okay
finally reached!

walked under the HOTHOTHOT sun
chaos everywhere
also duno where we going like that.
walking aimlessly.
lols

settled down a long time after wallking. ( cant remember the exact time though)
heard that athira. priscilla. meyer. will be coming too.
but cant find them.
saw melissa though.
very coincidental!
=PP

watched the performance.
under the HOTHOTHOT sun also.
it's very difficult la.
i mean
the weather is hot
we wanna open our umbrellas.
but that will disturb us frm what is happening onstage.
so very contradicting la.

saw numerous band performance
if i'm not wrong
shd be tanjong katong. deyi. and bowen
they all pro lorhs.
very neat and synchronised
COOL!

saw our campus superstars
zhiyang and teresa
okay
frankly
didnt really SEE them
heard them
and saw them from a great distance la
u shd know how BIG the national stadium is
;)

during the performance
we were all dying of thirst
not enough water
sun blazing at us
wanna buy water
but LONG QUEUE
NO STOCK
and i heard that one small cup cost $2
but stil very popular
lotsa ppl bought
that shows how unbearable the heat was

the whole performance end with a mass display
at around 6+ (was too tired to actually go and take note of the time)
we haf to wait all the way til 7.45
cos that's when our bus wil come
and as i said
the national stadium is HUGE
kekes

waiited for the bus
oh ya
phyllis was damn hyper that day
she kept screaming and shouting beside me
when we were waiting for the bus.
she kept singing the song
from this moment on ( or something like that. cant remember too. d:)
it triggered our hyperness too
most of us started singing
lalalalas!
even junweii aka our choir boy sang
though he claimed that whe was SHY
-.-
but he sing niice la
can be hongjunYANG le
=DD

in the bus didnt do anything real much
zul sang too.
solo.
breakaway
not bad seh
oh and we sang ms lau's fave song in the bus
I LIKE THE FLOWERS
I LIKE THE DAFFODILS
I LIKE THE MOUNTAINS
I LIKE THE GREEN FIELDS
I LIKE THE FIRE STONES
I LIKE TO WALK WITH YOU
BAH-DO-AR-BAH-DO-AR-BAH-DO-AR-BAH-DO
BOM-BOM-BOM-BOM *clap*
hilmie recorded it down in his phone
we haf our own album!
LOLOLOL

in the end reached sch at around 9+ ( once again. I CANT REMEMBER THE EXACT TIME)
went over to 7-11 DINGDONG
bought my fave PINKDOLPHIN
*slurp*
dad came and fetch me
gave my dear mei mei suxian a ride home too.
susrprised to know i'm the third
phyllis. then AHEM AHEM
just kidding la
^^

went homee
bathe. ate noodles.
then watched a ghost movie which aint scary at channel eight
called chengling throughout the whole movie
so we sorta watched it together eh
but i was half asleep.
especially during the advertisements
haf to keep myself awakeeee
slept at around 12+ (or was it 1+)
woke up like 11+ today
long long sleep
and long long dreeeeam
=))

**Drift**

2006-06-23T18:56:00.000+08:00
Drift. that's the word.
everything in the world is drifting apart.
or shd i say.
everything in MY world is drifting apart.
how should i put it?
erms.
arrr..
nevermind.
suddenly i feel that i dunno how to say.
familiar aint it?

down with fever.
severe headache.
paiined.
it's spliting apart.
think yesterday too late sleep le.
chatted with chengling and danny all the way till around 1.
didnt sleep well.
that's what cos the fever ba.

cant believe u are so naive as to believe me.
it's so obvious i'm pointing at u lorhs.
everyone else can see.
everyone with the exception of you.
when i think of you.
i haf endless to say.
but when i see u.
i cant seem to bring myself to say them out.
it's so duhh
i mean.
i just cant bring myself to trust you.
looking at the things u did.
how can i?

she's right.
ur an IB maan.
i wanna NOT think about it.
but i know it's impossible.
tiime wont wash away everything.

tmr gotta meet up for IPW summore.
haiish.
dont think can make it.
now head still paiin like hell.

stop crapping le.
gotta take med le.
sayonnara~

--sadded once again--

**will i.? will i not.?**

2006-06-11T19:40:00.000+08:00
recently quite stress out by the 6humility class gathering stuff.
LOADS of things to confirm and settle.
glad to have joey, michelle and meyer to help me.
thanks guys.
duno what i'll do without u all. X)

For any 6humility ppl who dunno anything about the class gathering ( which i dun think there'll be any. Oh well) please email, call, sms, msn, WHATEVER. Just contact me to know more about the details.

Special thanks to Michelle. Actually we planned to go east coast. But she gave a suggestion of going to her condominium which mr khoo really like. Michelle, thanks lotsa.! It's really not ur fault if *AHEM*. We really appreciate ur sacrificing spirit (if it's me. i die die wun ask de) And going there is a really really nice idea. thanks! XD

For people who are unhappy to come to this gathering due to some personal conflicts BEHIND THE SCENES. I dun mean to be rude, but u are welcome to LEAVE. no point forcing urself to stay when u are not happy. Feel free to go. You wun be persuaded. =X

Class gathering is on 19thJune. Which is 8days time. WOOOHOOOO~ i cant wait! Hope everything will run smoothly on that day. Hope my wound will heal soon. OUCH!

If there's any MISPLANNING of events. I am sorry. This is the best i can do. With the help of my other three marvellous workers! ;)

8more days. Must countdown EVERYDAY! i cant wait!

-wish upon a star-
``SyLviia

060606- the day has come.

2006-06-07T19:47:00.000+08:00
wooohooooo~

yesterday morning woke up at 6
go to sch at 7.30
maths supplementarrrry
grrrr..
mdm hee gave us SURPRISE test.
so SURPRISE yea.
algebra algebra and more algebra.
REALLY THAT USEFUL MEHS?!

floated through that maths supplementary.
tiired la.
FINALLY
it ended.
then went to hougang point with phy they all.
then met bryan at hougang point the busstop.
went to hougang mall tgt to find chengling.
at the mrt platform
then..
ermx..
went to plaza sing lorhs.
bought the tickets for SHES THE MAN
then went to look for stuff to eat.
unfortunately.
didnt find any
oh well.
have to go in for the movies.

watched the show
DAMN NICE LA
funny lorhs
recommended though. =)

after that.
went to chinatown
bryan needa buy stuff.
so we all go with him la.
walk walk walk..
then go back to..
compass point.

frm there, went home lerhs.
then went online and chat.
haiish.
have loads of things to confirm with 6humility.
class gathering.
stressing me out.
if nevertheless.
just hope it'd be a fun trip ba.
missing 6hum more and more each day.
it's the forebber ROCKING class.
=)

**why must it be you?**

2006-06-03T12:44:00.000+08:00
well..
currently..
PISSED OFF

you AGAIN.
AGAIN.
i cant stand it maaan.
yesterday make me and jie so damn mad.
in the middle of the night still called and said V**********
abitt siao right?
ALL THANKS TO YOU LA.

shdnt have anyhow surfed the net.
then all these wun happen.
but well.
avoiding no use.
might as well face it.
and since now we know the truth.
u never wanna know what we wil do.
u chose the way.
dont blame us if anything happen.

u shd have known all these would come when u first did that.
u shd know the consequnces for this.
since u dun treat us like one.
why must we treat u as u are?
everything's finished.
everything's ended.
how true is that.

if u all clever enough..
u wil have seen that i have UPDATED my profile
regarding which section.
nah. i wun tell.
see if u can figure it out.
i doubt YOU can.

frm yesterday..
1.01am 3rdjune2006 onwards
everything is over
yupps.
everything.
why?
reflect on urself.
WHAT DID U DO?
u may think
WHAT DID I DO?
NOTHING!
but seriously.
all i can say is.
u hurt us without even knowing it.
that makes things even worse.
u are insensitive.
u dun know how we feel.
and u stil claims that u know us alot.
and whatever.
reflect on urself.
do you really still think that way?
do you still understand us?

if u stil dunno what u did wrongly..
i take my hat off u.
u are really insensitive.
really really.
at least at thaat particular time we were both at a very angry point.
U TRIGGERED OUR ANGER
right jie?!

i dunno what else to say nemore.
u make us feel so INSIGNIFICANT
that we dont even needa even live in this world.
we dont even exist.
dont deny it.
u know it's what u think.
jie and i know that too.

*you wanna know what happened, ASK YOURSELF*
*everything has changed, WHETHER U LIKE IT OR NOT*
*goodbye and u are FORGOTTEN*

--i am utterly disppointed--

27 may. what a busy day.

2006-05-28T14:14:00.000+08:00
yesterday went out.
one whole day.
fridays night.
went to stay overnight at my aunt's
slept at 11.
woke up at 8.
9 hours.
nothing else to say.

tried making DP for chengling.
nto nice
so deleted it
LOVL!

then yesterday morning.
called meyer and wanching.
chat on the fone.
chat chat chat.
then decided to go sharon's house for a swim in the evening.
long time didnt meet them le.
though have things on in the afternoon.
but afternoon and evening different what.
so agreed to go lorhs.

well then.
told chengling.
and we chat on the fone.
how to disguise?!
LOLS
i bet only she will understand baaa.

then met chengling, bryan, and brian at hougang point.
for what?
to play lorhs.
play what?
cycle lorhs.
but how?
it's raining.
what else?
went to have a rest at the void deck first lorhs.

then cycle.
didnt have a bike.
so chengling lent me.
=) thanks
cycle frm hougang point.
to xinmin.
bought bubble tea.
WOAH~ it felt sooooo NICE
carried on.
to montfort
monTfort
=D
then want to go hougang pri.
but end up at hougang mall.
too perfect sense of direction.
-.-

but well.
in the end.
still manage to get there.
and saw their rockwall.
NICE

then carried on to the buildings behind hougang point.
stopped at the playground.
bryan suggested playing BLIND MICE!
but in the end dont have.
cos wanching called.
asking me to meet at hougang point entrance NOW!
left lorhs.
have to let them take bike home themselves.
sorry!
hope you all wun mind.
=)

met them at hougang point.
went up NTUC while waiting for meyer.
sorry didnt say i was going to regentville.
how do you expect me to say it right?!
=)

then came down.
waited for meyer for long long time.
in the end
she called.
say she cannot make it.
well.
nevermind.
so we went without her.

actually didnt want to swim le.
cos.
err.
well.
some reasons.
budden wanching and sharon insisted.
and you will never know what they wil do if you disobey them.
after awhile of their talking.
find that it's no big deal.
then go lorhs.

didnt wear spects.
well.
who will wear spects when swimming?
then cant see clearly.
but can HEAR though.
but cant see la.
just kept playing balls with chiing and sharon.
funn.
especially jump ball.
so cool.

swim till like.
7+
then bathe
and went hougang point to eat
hungrrrry
went home with wanching.
discuss abit on the class gathering.
the tentative date is 19june.
not confirm.
but it shd be la.

came home.
went online.
chat chat chat lorhs.
err.
that's all.
slept at 12+
yeah
one day
FINISHED!

Life sucks.

2006-05-19T23:00:00.000+08:00
well..
thanks VIVIAN!!
for speaking up for me against that idiot..
ROCK ON!!

well..
wasnt in the best of mood today..
went to sports carnival..
didnt take part in the events
but helped miss lim with the refreshments..
quite tiring..
but fun though..
=))

congrats to 1/1..
for winning the Tug-O-War competition..
easily beaten the opponents..
COOL!

errmx..
it rained..
double spoilt my mood..
so we had to stay under shelter..
played dare with friends..
FUN FUN FUN!!
did lotsa stupid but cute dares..
nice larhs.

things spoilt my mood though..
LOTS of them..
shant name any..
it will be a long long time if i do..
just real down lorhs.
the cheering dont seem to cheer me up.
but thanks though..
phyllis..rebecca and suxian..
you guys are the BESTEST MEIS!

i came online after that..
and know the cruel truth..
the truth that i have been dying to know..
but yet now i am regretting my choice..
i cant believe it's you.
u seem so nice to me..
u promised me..
and yet you eventually said it out..
but well..
i told u i wun blame you..
and wun be angry..
just a lil upset perhaps..
i thought it was u all along..
but i really dunno it is really you..
i always hope i was wrong..
and tried all sorts of ways to convince myself..
but the truth is always hurtful..
and pricking..
but it wil always be the truth..
and will always be real..
nothing will change it..
nothing.

now the worse part is..
how am i going to face it??
shd i do as what phy suggested??
ignore and pretend that dont exist?
or shd i just clarify things further?
or shd i treat it like nothing happen at all?
i really really dunno which is the best way..
please answer my question..
i am really vexed cos of this..

the troubles are mounting up and suffocating me..
is this secondary sch life??
a typical one??
studies..
friends..
peer..
everything.
i really hate this kinda life..
why cant we all just die?
it seemed a much carefree way of getting ourselves out of all these problems.
after all..living is of no point now..
u may think i am a pessimist..
but my life sucks.
you wont understand unless you are in my shoe.
lotsa things trapped in my mind.
locked up.
and the key to it is lost.

P.S. I cant bring myself to get to the fact that you are the one. I dont know what to say.

dear imposter..

2006-05-13T15:58:00.000+08:00
hey imposter..
CONGRATULATIONS MAAAN!!!
u finally know how to spell the short form of my name!!!
a worthy applause for u..
*Clapclap*

just few simple notes for u..
i dun start a sentence with 'man!'
and u know what u rote?
'man! you guys sux... ur g uys go fuck off! all u care is urself... and i am here using all the shit'
ppl who know me know i dun speak or type this way..
i seriously encourage u to talk more to me and understand my way of writing..
if not no matter how much u do..
no use derhs..
noone will ever believe u for it derhs..
and one thing..
i dun understand why u always write about ppl caring only about themselves?
i mean..
i dun understand larhs..
so please horx..
next time..
when u tag again..
elaborate why u said that..
if not ppl wil blurr derhs
hahas!!
thanks worhs!!
and one thing..
i seldom use the F word in taggs..
so if u want ppl to believe it's miie..
dont use it kkays??
talk till here bahhx..
see ya around~!

a day..good to bad to worse...

2006-05-13T10:38:00.000+08:00
Woah~~
speech day overrrr!
and lit test overrrr!
HURRAY!!
finally dun have two burdens lerhs.
as i said..
everything is over..
everything..
including my friendship with u..
over in a day.

yesterday morning..
went to weilong's house..
do IPW..
HIS HOUSE DAMN NICE!!
nicely decorated..
and his sis wanna treat us to pizza...
*62410241..
canadian pizza..
TWO FOR ONE!*
too bad miie and minyi had toleave for ATC gathering..
didnt get to eat the pizza..

Went to Pasir Ris
ATC senior farewell party..
how should i comment it nerhs?
well..
honestly speaking..
it isnt as good as i thought it would be larhs..
maybe cos dunno alotta ppl bahx..
and moreover..
IT IS RAINING!!
we played in the rain..
HAHAS!!
FUN!!!
frisbee..
monkey..
netball..
EVERYTHING!
then it was Dinah birthday..

Happybirthdaytou..
happybirthdaytou..
happybirthdaytodinah..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U!

had birthday cake..
had barbequed stuff..
had drinks..
well..
it MAY seem nice..
but sometimes..
it is actually quite boring..
i especially like the part where we were playing in the water..
though it is dirty..
and dangerous...
but it was FUN!
all fun..
except for a saddist guy..
cheerup kkays??
Dont do something so foolish next time..
star star stars..
=)

then well..
stayed till 8++..
played water bomb..
didnt get really wet..
cos got the excuse that i didnt bring extra clothes..
i wonder what will happen if they found out that i actually have extra clothes??
LOLS

Bryan's dad sooo goood!!!
fetch me and Chengling back..
THANKS!

well..
came back..
half dead..
so tiirred..
but stil went online..
and i seriously dunno why..
once i see u online..
i really really..
ARGH!
Actually i know the reason why..
but i wouldnt tell anyone..
dont bother asking..
just one sentence for u..
YOU ARE TOO INSENSITIVE!
please pay more attention to what happen kkays?
i shant give u anymore clues on this..

overall..
i have mixed feelings..
happy..
sad..
angry..
crazy..
jealous..
proud..
blurrr..
alot of them..
almost everything
all suffocating me..

and yeah..you're right...i cant take it..
the news hit me like a bomb..
BOMBA~~
it ripped me off the will to live..
I bet u wouldnt understand..
well...
it's not surprising..
NOBODY WOULD.

Please be okay..tell me u really are...

2006-05-07T21:35:00.000+08:00
haiiiish..
this few days..
STRESSED!
Literature play..
Speech day rehearsal...
studies..
third lang...
DRIVING ME MADDD...
but well..
after this week..
it'll all be over..
all be over...

well..
regarding that..
i dunno what to say..
i really not good with words..
cheering up ppl not my forte..
and i already ran out of ideas on what to say lerhs..
but here..
really must tell u to work harder lorhs..
not in terms of study..
in terms of you know what..
well..
but u cannot force it..
once it's gone..
u'll have to let it go...
please please please please please..
tell me that u are okay..
and remain that goofy smile on ur face..

well..that's about all for today..
tomorrow have rehearsal..
AGAIN
nevermind..
shd learn to bear with it instead of nagging..
*breathe in* *breathe out*
okay..
feeling better..
and i hope YOU are too..
smiles
i will always be there for euu...<33

YOU MAKE ME GO CRAZY. IN THE NEGATIVE WAY.

2006-04-21T23:30:00.000+08:00
IF YOU THIINK I HAVE FORGIVEN YOU JUST CAUSE OF THE SIMPLE 'SORRY' YOU'VE SAID AND AN EXPLAINATION THAT I DONT EVEN CARE, YOU MUST BE DREAMING. MY IMPRESSION OF YOU HAVE NEVER CHANGED FROM LAST YEAR TO THE PRESENT TO THE FUTURE. AND IT WONT!! IF YOU THIINK BY TALKING TO YOU, I HAVE PUT EVERYTHING BEHIND ME ; IF YOU THINK I REPLIED TO THE LAME THINGS U SAID, THAT MEANS I HAD FORGOTTEN ABOUT THE INCIDENT THAT HAS HAPPENED, YOU ARE SO WRONG! IF U DIDNT REALISE, THE WAY I TALK TO U, ARE USING VERY SHORT REPLIES AND IT IS OFTEN FULL OF PRICKS. BUT THIS WAY DOESNT SEEM TO EVEN GIVE YOU THE SLIGHTLIEST HINT THAT I DONT HAVE A NICE IMPRESSION OF YOU. I TRIED ALL WAYS, AND EVEN ASKED 'HER' TO ACT OUT A NICE AND PERFECT SCENE FOR U, WITH LOTSA ACTRESSES FACILITATING THE ACT BEHIND, BUT U DONT EVEN BACKOFF. DO YOU KNOW IT REALLY PUTS ME OFF? KEEP IRRITATING ME AND DISRUPTING MY LIFE! I MADE IT VERY CLEAR TO U. STOP IRRITATING ME. FROM TODAY ONWARDS, I WONT REPLY TO U UNLESS NECESSARY, AND EVEN SO, IT WILL BE THE KIND WHICH U CAN SENSE THAT I DONT CARE. TRY ME!!! I KNOW U ARE READING THIS, I AM LIKE SO POSITIVE, SO PLEASE, GET OUT OF MY SIGHT.

P.S. I AM SO GLAD THAT U ARE NOT IN MY SCHOOL.
IF NOT I DON'T KNOW HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO
SURVIVE.

Total disgrace...

2006-04-19T18:51:00.000+08:00
For the "Slyvia" that tag on my tagboard....and said...."You guys sucks man...............only care about yourself........I hate you guys......." Whoever you are...don't you think this foolish behaviour is like so lame...tag on my board and say ppl sucks...using my name...and not even spelling it correctly summore..
Please larhs...i dun even understand what the hell you talking about lorhs...what you guys sucks...what i hate you all...what crap?!?! I thiink you should check on uself...do you even understand what is the meaning of hate? and do you understand the meaning of you guys? you didnt even specify who..don't you think you are retarded?? I mean..this is even worse than putting 'anonymous'...putting others name....spelling it incorrectly...and talking crap that others don't understand there.....can u like just go and think back..what is the objective of doing this stupid thing?? What can u gain from it?? Nothing!!! Just that it gave us an idea that u are someone who is dumb and foolish to do things that little kids do....own up and admit larhs...if u let us find out it's you...don't you think it will be embarrassing? haiiish....talking to idiots are a waste of my time..

[[**Few combined incidents that happened today**]]

2006-04-17T18:42:00.000+08:00
today...went to life science...
did the guesssing who is the murderer game...
wahhh...so bored there lorhs..our whole group like not concentrating or paying attention..
luckily miss nadiah talking to us...if not we bored to death..
she good....tell us alot things...not about dna of course..about private lives...then we were like so curious..hahhs..

Kena saboed by them..
waaaaa..
Dun wanna mention on the details..
ask me more personally bahx..
How can u al do this to me?
One not enough..two..
two not enough..three...
three not enough...four...
so many..
did u all ever spare a thought for me?!?!
*hmph*

And one thing...tamaryn..
if you are reading this...i don't like eugene kkays??
I didnt keep mentioning him lorhs..
only once nia..i read the post..
is i bored till i dunno wad to do den post of the speech day thinggy..
and he acting with me wad..s
o just write lorhs..
enough of rumours le larhs..
we all know it's not true wad..

just now before life science...
went to kidnap minyi...
wahahax...
dont take it to heart kkays??

and i met a psycho today..
not in anderson larhs..
in xinmin derhs..
i mean..
last time xinmin primary..
yucks..
You all know what it did?
It got hold of my display picture..
and sent it to me in msn..
which has me, meyer, weishan, and shimin in it..
it is a neoprint..
and it was on my display picture..
I thiink IT went to take screen shots and crop out...
and when i ask IT...
IT said that it was his brother that did it..
and IT said ITself was in the toilet..
and when i ask IT later..
IT said ITself was playing runescape...
like...oh i got it..
IT was playing runescape in the toilet..
what crap!!!!
tell lies also dunno how to tell...
everywhere got loopholes..
okay...
even if we take it that...
it was ITs brother that sent the picture..
It must have got the picture for ITs brother to send right?
I don't believe ITs brother can do things so fast..
and moreover..
the neoprint was my display picture like dunno how long ago..
and IT got it saved in the computer..
so that ITs brother can send..
and how can IT be playing runescape and ITs brother can send at the same time?
Total lies!!!
alright..i believe the part where IT said it was ITs brother that sent it..
I mean..
whiich pervert would do sumthing pervertic and make known to everyone?
should be IT's brother send derhs..
budden IT must have saved the piicture..
and that's what disgust me..
tell me...
how many times in your life have u seen a PERVERT like IT??
Don't you ever wished you dunno this kinda PSYCHO?
IT...if you are reading this..
I chose to kept ur name unknown as i have no wish to make people hate u..
But bear it in mind..
MY opinion of you will never change..
you will always be that RETARD who SUCKS..
No amount of explaination is going to make me believe in u...
And STOP doing this kinda things that disgust people..
I cant believe the kind of attention u get on teachers considering ur behaviour..
and u told me u have a crush right?
haha..good luck to ur crush then..but if ur crush got a slight taste..
Ur crush wun fall in love with u...
trust me..
unless ur crush really that despo larhs..
Not that i wanna suan u..
but look in the mirror...
and reflect on ur attitude..
don't you think u suck??
I shouldnt talk about his anymore..
it onli makes me puke..
I wont let this affect my mood derhs..
=))

And to people reading these posts...
please please please please please...
please tag...
my tagboard damn dead lerhs..
i notice ppl read without taggin..
then wad's the point of posting?
please tag..
i urge all of u...
please...
and thanks..

boring boring boring...

2006-04-15T09:56:00.000+08:00
Woah...just woke up...as I said..in cousin's house..haven take breakfast yet..waiting for it larhs..then damn bored what..and i computer addicted lerhs..so come and post lorhs..hmm..later on...going Xinmin homecoming...bought the tiicket frm yensiu..sorry jinglin...never buy from you...but yensiu asked me first..=((

Hope that it will be quite fun bahx..people like velda...weishan...and meina...suxian..they all also going..hope to see them there..maybe..i will just stay for awhiile bahx...cause i'm assuming that it will be quite bored..

Well..just to say sorry to u larhs..though i don't really feel sorry...-.-
Just that i know i shouldnt have bluff u...
But whatever i did..it is to make you believe it..
and hopefully..
come to ur senses..
I hope u did..
It is not worth it larhs..
I know i may made u unhappy for awhiile..
but this short while is definitely better than a long term one..
bear with it...
=))

That's all for today bahx..want to do something more fun lerhs..
and also wanna prepare for the homecoming later..
Sayonnara for now..

haiiiiiiiiiiiiiish............

2006-04-14T20:03:00.000+08:00
haiiiish...I am shooooooooooo bored....currently at my cousin's house..being forced by her and her dad...which is my uncle to stay at her house..haiiiish....long time since i stayed here..cause everytime they ask..i try to find excuses...not that i dunnch like them..just that i dont really enjoy staying here..i mean..well..i know her house is nice..she got a comp..scv..and nice food..nice place..is ust that i have to be..not myself when i'm here...it doesnt really gimme a sense of belonging bahx...haiiish...i jsut post cause i really too sian lerhs..and dun have the urge to type sumthing nice and atteracting ppl's attention alot.

Well...next week is CCA stamp down..u may think i am really happy...cause i really siiick of drama lerhs..again..it's not really i dun like it...just that it is quite boring sumtimes..and that we always have to act act act..rehearse rehearse rehearse..and have to stay till so late summore..but..though it is stamp down..ATC stil have to go back on friday for the rehearsal of the speech day coming up...around may perhaps...WTH!!! people can relax and focus on their exams while we cant!!! We have to remember all the lines and get ourseclves prepared for these things. It's like..snatching time away frm us..sobsob..nevermind..we got CCA points..and according to them..the ONE CCA point we are gonna get is considered alot. Wow..i sure didnt know that frm the beginning. The worst part is.. I have to sort of act as a bitch..not the real bitch i mean..the marketing executive kind...who looks down on ppl and think she is high and mighty..and have to scold ppl...though it's only for like a while..but it makes me feel all bitchy!! and have wto do the scene with eugene again..only this time..it is that he stole my idea for MY PROPOSAL. What a funny joke..i seriously hope he won't get bursting out in laughter during the performance...he cannot stop laughing..and the problem is..when i see him laughing..i cannot stop laughing too!!! i was like always pondering over this problem..what if he laughs in front everyone...and ruin the whole performance?? or what if..he just snigger abit..but when i see it..i cannot control but laugh out..then i ruin the performace...i will be so dead by then manx...i can imagine the whole thing...ATC reputation ruin..evereyone angry with me..waaaaaaa.....sobsob...i dont wanna think about it lerhs..

Long time no see..i'm back...

2006-04-07T21:43:00.000+08:00
Sorry to everyone..long time never post lerhs..quite busy recently bahx..and nothing really worth posting derhs..since i wanna post..got time..shd post bout what happen today bahx..

Nothing really special in all larhs..starting with mother tongue...went inspire town..then describe our school out...five places of our school...nothing special to say lerhs..then is english..reading period...nothing also..recess..hmm..ate chicken chop..and nothing also..

Followed on by Music..ms lau so funny..(as usual) ...taught us a few terms..Forte-Loud. Piano-Soft. Presto-Fast. Lento-Slow. And we sang songs..The 'V' in you..and One united people..that's about all bahx..as for D and T..i did the utility dish thinggy..cause last week never go what..must complete asap..then..dismiss!!!

Lunch..then me and Minyi..nothing to do..while waiting for the Drama at three..went to watch the Movie screened in the AVT..it is a Japanese anime..and the spoke in japanese..though i don't understand what they are talking about..i had the subtitle as help..managed to finish the whole movie..and it was so touching..it's about a guy..Howl..who will turn to a creature and fight against something..He has a friend and a movable castle..one day..a lady..who called herself grandmother Sophie..came in and cannot stand the amount of dirt accumulated on the castle..she..as a cleaning lady..helped to tidy the house..it turns out to be that she is actually under a spell cast by the evil Witch of the Waste. And the worse thing is..the witch can only create the spell..not break it..so poor sophie...she can onli be changed back to her usual self at times of the day..other times she wil be an ugly and old grandmother. Day after day..Howl and Sophie fell in love with each other..they..together with Califer( the fire) ..Mark..(friend of howl)..and witch of the waste who lost her power..not forgetting the bouncy scarecrow..whom i had forgotten the name..they lived happily ever after in end..

Very difficult to say the story out larhs..go watch it urself..very nice..very romantic..very sweeeeeeeet...wonderful love story..

Then next is drama..we doing with the seniors..in multipurpose studio..preparing for speech day on may..just started the structure of it..think wil have a long way to go..argh..how bout my academic results?? Got time anot?? hahax..will try to find derhs..

kkays larhs..tok next time..cyaz..buh bye...

Meeting meeting meeting...

2006-03-13T20:50:00.000+08:00
Hmm..today went to do project work with Rebecca, Meina, Tinghui, Minyi and Weilong. Minyi and Weilong had the ACP today, so we decided to do our art project before meeting up for IPW. Went to Tinghui's house and TRIED to complete our ART work( which obviously we didnt). Still, we continued with our IPW after they came back from ACP.

Went to Ang Mo Kio central's Macdonald to have lunch( though we already had lunch in Tinghui's house-fried rice by her mum. Tinghui, ur mum's a nice cook. LOL) Then we went shopping!! At popular. We chose our stuff needed for IPW, then shop around there for our own stuff ( you can't blame us, shopping's a girls' forte. As for weilong, well, either he changed to a girl after our influence, or he is being forced to. Joking. No offence.) Then we went to Minyi's house to complete the things...do do do..with her family..her sister Min Ting, she was so helpful. Nice to have her a helper.

After all the work, we went back home. Me and Meina went back together, and had a long nice chat. Hmm..maybe i abit paranoid sometimes. Hopefulle bahx. ( i know it is contradicting to you, but trust me, it's not)

*sigh* Tomorrow going back to school..for Drama stuff. Sianx lahx. And having an other IPW meeting on Thursday. According to Meina, yuppx, we will go to ANIMAL HOUSE for our meeting. Hahax. Kidding. No offence. Damn scared of cats and dogs. though they are really cute. (contradicting again) Well, nbm..dont think there are anymore to talk about. So...cyazzzzz.....byeeeeeeee...

You clearly made miie lose all confidence in u..

2006-03-11T18:36:00.000+08:00
Haix..just create a msn space recently..so wun b updating here alot..for those who knows my msn...remember to look at it..and leave ur comment...it is gonna take place of this blog..but still...i will still update here when i like it....hmm..for those who dun have my msn..too bad then...muahahx..ermx..yeah..just passed my burfday..thanks all of u for ur wishes and present..real grateful..

hmm..i wanna declare..miie and u..we are no longer friends..you did things that made me and my other friends very unhappy with it..first is this..then is that..when can u stop?? well..nvm..just take it that we had got the wrong friend...but now..we woken up..frm the dream..just in time to face the truth...pretend for all we care..we dun wanna know..tell urself hw popular u really are..live in ur dreams..dun every wake up..for the reality of that people really dislike u alot will hurt u...since we are once friends..lemme tell u...if u dun change urself..u will b well hated by lotsa peeps..i may seem as ur good friend now..as u may seem like my..but deep down..we both know it is not the case..u and ur other good fren..XXX...everyone prefers XXX to u...if u are still in ur own world..IT IS TIME TO WAKE UP!! u are no longer as popular as u are last time ( if u are really popular then)..ppl used to tell miie how bad u were..and i just say hahaha...trying to put in some good words for u...but now?? hmph..i finally seen ur true side..aft like a few incident..whether u did it intenetionally or not..this seem too much of a coincidence...i really cannot help but to believe...i woke up right on 9 march.. and tell myself that i wun believe in u ever again..even if i ever talked to u again..bear that in mind..we are not as good as we used to b..not now...not the future...NEVER!!!

heck lahx...why must u do this??

2006-02-16T18:44:00.000+08:00
wtfffffff.....today darwin called miie..and told miie bout a thing...which toooooooooots are saying...wad the...i left school lerhs...can they just let miie off peacefully?? i m sick and tired of these things...everytime this and that...walau...chill out peeps...it's not wad u imagined..can't normal frens classmates or sch mates go out together??dun hav to think the complicated side of things right??dunno who the hell saw that...even if they did..may i ask...WAD DID U SEE?!?!?! just ppl going out together..and mind u...it's not one on one..is a whole big gang..pls look properly b4 u speak..u can cos ppl to b unhappy cos of sum shyte u said without going through ur mind...please lahx..we are purely frens..and nothing more than frens..omfg..can't it just b as simple as this?? fine..mayb u were anxious bout the results..and i can understand ur feelin as a toooooooooooooot...u did nothing wrong...u did that out of pure concern.....u wan ur tooootoooot to hav the best that they could have..and seriously...i understand it...i m not those immature ones..(though i m not so mature still)..who just scold u all without understandin wad ur point of doing the whole thing is...but pls...put urself in miie and miie de nothing-more-than-fren fren's shoe...did u ever spare a thought for us?? did u ever?? if it is true..fine...we can do nothing..but IT IS NOT!!! there is nothing...absolutely nothing between us..and it make us go around looking so stupid...and so embarrassing...but as a toooooooooooooot...u hav every right to knw bout toooootoooot's life..budden u dun hav to mak it til like every tooooooooooooooot noes right?? even the head of toooooooooooooooot...and do u noe how difficult it is for miie to face the tooooooooooooot....all cos of a stupid rumour which u said..and worse still...it is not true...and then all the peeps will start thinkin that i hav a thing for this nothing-more-than-fren fren...do u exactly knw how much it affected miie?? it's damn damn embarassing for miie to face tooooooooooooooooooots again lohx..and all thanks to YOU! U did not check out the facts and started to cos peeps to knw bout this thing..yeah...i admit..so wad if there is really a rumour on this thing in the past..wad's past is pass...and that time..is onli ppl say things out of fun..cos they have nothing beta to do..and hey are toooootooooot..but u r a toooooooooooooooooooot...so pls..dun cos miie more harm pls...i dun wan another trouble added to mountains of it which i already had...i m not really here to like scold u or sumthing...(and besides...i hav no intention and rights to do that...)really sorry if i sounded rude in this post..with the lotsa nasty words..i was just real angry..but i hav no intention of being rude to u...cos this post is not meant for u..but i really hope u will understand...one thing...which i knw many of us here understands...RUMOURS KILL!!!!

finally..it's all cumin to an end...

2006-02-03T22:17:00.000+08:00
hmm..as commented by yiwen..i shd post my blog more often..and i shd do that..ermx..ok...bout the previous post..i mentioned that thing troubling miie..hahahax..IT ENDED!! hurray hurray...but anyway..it's not through a painful way lahx..it just sort of ended...like..like...i just sorted out my thinkins..and found out that everything wasnt as complicated as it seems...so..ermx..ppl out there..shut ur mouth frm today onwards...wadever happened is ALL THE PAST..forget it alright? and most importantly...forget..and let ur MOUTH forget it too..those that dun understand..which is like i m tokin to all readin this blog..xcept selected really really few..dun even bother to think lahx..cos no matter wad..my own mouth oso shut tiedly derhs..muahahax..ermx..well..so happy that i finally let this burden off my shoulder..think gonna celebrate..hip hip hurray..well...post on more things tomorrow...if time allows it...kkays...tata!

started out in anderson...

2006-01-31T17:25:00.000+08:00
well..sorry..din post for a long time...well...now free...so come and post..and i got lots to say..firstly..i started out at anderson..hmm..still adaptin quite well i shd say...at least i think so...ermx..the hmwk..stil ok lahx..but i m still like before..always idling around..chattin..playing..anything xcept doing hmwk...so...haix..everytime gotta rush derhs..must change this habit of mine siahx..well...for my cca...i took up drama...haix..typical miie...cos i really dunno wad to choose..not interested in sports..hate uniform groups..and i dun wan those like library like that..for performing arts..dun tell miie i shd go jon chi dance or choir or wadsoever..so urm..still drama lahx..think it suits miie more lohx..muahahax..den made some new frens..they all vry good...always help miie..aiyahs..dunno how to say..just vry good..that's it...and one thing..1/1 rawks!!!the guys..haix..a proper anderson cheer..the go and modify it to the '1/1 sexy cheer'..about how it goes..well..ask miie personally...=D...but anyway..though i really really like my new class...i will nv forget Xinmin pri..and the peeps there...it will always serves as a beautiful memory..tokin bout xinmin..when i go back on CNY celebration..the dun even let the secondary students into the school compound..we can onli stay at concourse area..i now the teachers did all these cos they have the pupils' welfare...but come on...did they think bout us?? we want to see the sch again..and we want to meet our teachers..and the other of our frens who are still in Xinmin...and moreever..before we leave....our principal said that they will always welcome us back...u call this welcome?!?! lettin us stay outside like a dog?!?! wth..but must control oso..fine fine..anyway..not in the mood to think bout all these..haix..these few days..waaaa...so sad...so so troubled..even during CNY..i dun think alot of u all can guess the reason why..but still..dun even bother to guess lahx..it's the same reason right frmthe beginning...but i just can't seem to stop this whole thing frm floodin my head..i can always see the picture in my eyes..hahax..for those who noe wad i m tokin bout... i m not hallucinating..and not day-dreamin...is just that i cannot get rid of this..well...i guess onli when something happens..when i m totally hurt...den i can totally forget bout this thing bahx..at that time..this wun follow miie around lerhs..and i will b free!!! hahaha...enough tok le lahx..haben finish hmwk...till nex time...tata!!

startin my sec sch...right @ anderson...

2006-01-08T18:46:00.000+08:00
heyx...long time no blog lerhs...not so free recently lahx..hmm..just started out my new life...secondary sch life...at anderson secondary school...hmm...good school i shd say...nice surroundin..and seniors all vry nice to us..tomorrow start sch officially...with that lotsa hmwk...hope i can handle it lohx..haix..another subject...JAPANESE!!! hate it lohx...so many things to do everyday..scared that cannot cope...still thinkin bout my desired cca..will it b drama again?? or something else like...ermx...will say the final result once i decided...and haix..just know my class on fri...late right??hmm...dunno good or bad..bt is 1/1...u may think it is the first class..but it may not b...cos the behavior of my classmates all sux...though mine is no beta....but hopefully is not the last class lahx..but last class oso nvm lahx...at least wun hav so much pressure...k lahx...enough tok lerhs...gtg now...for dinner...and will keep u updaed on more stuffs....tata!!

sian sianx...sad sad....

2005-12-21T17:41:00.000+08:00
well..went to cousin's house..nth much to do dere...i mean..well actually i AM at her house now..and it is so sian dat i hav nth to do so use her comp lohx..budden online oso nothing to do...haix...just chattin and chattin...with the same peeps...hmm...tomorrow goin back to school...to know the postin results...i shd b the last time i m goin back to xinmin with my sch uniform..hmm...gonna miss it for sure...after all...spent 6 whole years in it...with all the memories..haix..i think onli p6 can understand it bahx..well...will try to remember everything of Xinmin...how it look like and all that...ok...dun tok le lahx...nth to tok anyway...kiez...till next time...buhbye...

can i really forget it??or will it alwaes follow miie??

2005-12-16T16:55:00.000+08:00
hmm...went to mr khoo's party yesterday..pretty ok i shd say...nth much lahx...haix...dunno wad to say lehx...just tryin real hard to forget sumthing..dunno whether possible anot...bt muz hav confidence in urself wad..i think n hope i can...cos rememberin dun serve as a good memory either...and i dun c the need why..and rememberin can really hurt miie...in a way or another...and also cos miie to b real unhappy..and perhaps even sad..haix...it will do miie no good if i dun forget it lahx..in life or in studies...wadsoever...i m tryin my vry best to forget it...but i really think it is impossible lehx...to forget it i mean..at least it is real difficullt...bt with concentration and determination...hmm...it SHD B ok bahx...cross my fingers and pray hard for the best...

hmm..funny feelins...

2005-12-09T02:37:00.000+08:00
hmm..today morning..woke up..just hav a special feelin that sth is gonna happen ...bt dunno wad lehx..did i miss out sum1's birthday?? nopes...dun think so..m i suppose to meet with anyone??no also..den wad is it exactly?? puzzled...haix..mayb is onli my feelins bahx..who noes?? just cannot figure out..and...dun wanna care lerhs..so bored lohx..this holiday i mean...cannot go out derhs..cos dunno where to go...no good places in mind..i'm just so bored..just thinkin..wad will my secondary sch life b like? will it b totally BLACK?? or will it b even more colourful den my primary school ones? and will i bear to leave my pri sch frens?will i b able to cope with my studies? i guess these r the questions most pri6 r thinkin of..and i noe i will nv b able to figure out till my secondary sch life starts..hmm..do i dread to go to secondary sch or can't wait to??i cannot even figure this simple question out..haix...forget it..dun care le..as a sayin..chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi..i hope all my worries r unnecessary...and everything will go on fine..i will alwaes believe that tomorrow will b a better day...

borin holidays..again...

2005-12-07T13:14:00.000+08:00
hmm..another borin day to home..stuck at home u can say..haix..facin the borin comp..withouht any thing that can perk miie up..wad the..sooo de damn borin lohx...and just thinkin tt i hav to continue bein so bored...for the next...1 month....arghhhhhhhhhhh...it's drivin miie crazy...and bsides..i dun even wanna think about wat the future holds for miie...it's all BLACK..all thanks to sum1..who ermx..haix...fine...it'd b beta to keep my mouth shut...just for once perhaps..kekes..thinkin bout my secondary sch life..hmm..what will it b like..first day of sch...will a meet lotsa frenx?? or b a total lonely freak??will a b able to cope with my studies??..which is a whole lot of subjects..probably more den 10 i assume..will i b able to pass my exams with flyin colours or flunk it totally?? will it b this...or will it b that??mmm...i dunno...and i guess i will nv till i step into my new sch..start my new life..a total new one..and begin my next..special and unexpected journey..a journey i will nv forget i think...with loads of surprises to b discovered..one by one..hmm..it dun really seem vry bad..does it??at least i hope nt..well..as for now..i can do nth...bt to b prepared for wadever it will b next year..and for ALL my frens in xinmin primary..whether u r boy or girl..or wadever level..i hope our frenship will NEVER end..at least not now..for all pri 6..wish u all the best in ur future undertakings..hope ur secondary life will b more colourful den ur primary school ones..for pri 5..next year is ur PSLE..ur vry critical exam..whether u go to a good sch or not..depends on this exam..really all the best for ur exam..and a quote frm my formal form teacher..mr randy khoo..."i'll b prayin for u..."..mayb onli those frm 6 humility will understand bahx..and i will nv ever ever forget xinmin primary...wonderful memories throughout this years hav been etched in my heart deeply...nv to b erased..i hav experienced alot throughout these years..and this has made miie a stronger person den b4..happy and sad moments..angry and scared times...wil alwaes follow miie wherever i go..forever..6 humility..i will nv forget u..and the two years we had been together..we r one big family..and we will alwaes b..will alwaes remember u deep down in my heart...just cos of one and onli reason..U RAWKS!!!

yesterday's trip is nt totally bad..at least...i knew somethings...

2005-12-03T06:26:00.000+08:00
hmm..yesterdays east coast trip..although lots of unexpected accidents happen..at least..at least i knew the answers to two of the most difficult questions on earth..one is bout meyer...the other is bout miie myself...well..i realise tt meyer actually...actually...ermx..k lahx..dun say lahx..bt tt is sth tt ppl r guessin tt..haix..and i gt it certified..actually i guessed it long ago..and asked meyer..bt she wun say...cos she say she dunno..bt the trip yesterday made her noe exactly the truth..and miie too...well..if i say i m nt affected by the ans she gave..i must b kiddin..srry meyer..bt i hope u dun mind..it's nt possible tt i m nt feelin anything..bt haix..dun care bout miie lahx..i dun wanna spoil ur da hao qian tu..bt at the same time..it will b really sad for both of us..if..ermx..we share the same...ermx..u can say..hobby..haix..i dunno hw to put it lahx...my eng nt tt good..bt i believe u wil understand derhs...bt as a good fren..i hope tt u will have a bright future with this..ermx.. hobby..cos u will really enjoy havin this hobby derhs..i assure u...haix...it's complicated right??bt i noe meyer so clever...surely understand derhs...hahax..hmm..den the second thing i understood..bout miie derhs..i hav been askin myself the same question over and over again..for the past..ermx..say..month??bt i still dunno the ans..even till yesterday..i m still puzzled..i sat at the beach..lookin at the sea..with lotsa questions floodin my mind..the beautiful scenery dun seem to beautify my mood..bt it sure clear it..and boy..i gt the answer..and i m quite sure i dun wan tt as the ans...i dun like tt..bt wart cann i do??can't change the fact right??and the worse thing is..i can't hav this ans now!!the whole situation is different ever since 25 nov 2005..bt i dun hav the power to change it..shd i just accept it??bt this acceptin might cos alot of my frens to b upset..and sum of which r my real good frenx..which i dun wanna lose..waaaa...wat can i dooo??problems r in my mind and will b until i sorted out my thinkin..and make sure tt the ans to my quest is just the opposite..bt..will this day ever ever cum??nevertheless..i will try...i promise...

happy??...or sad??

2005-12-02T15:32:00.000+08:00
today...well..planned to go to east coast with meyer..yong guan..darwin..taihong..jiayun..and her cousin..ermx..i will start frm yesterday..aft long persuation to parents..i finally cann go..bt i cannot sleep well..nt cos too excited..cos ermx..i think onli those tt went to east coast will noe..and i dun feel like sayin why..hahax...den ermx..today nt really feelin well..cos yesterday nt enough rest..den slight fever..bt din tell parents..so just go lohx..miie..meyer...darwin..meet at heartland mall de kfc..treat him to kfc..cos i owe him derhs..we went to tk neoprints..treat dem oso..haix..around 12.30pm..taihong called and said his mum reach heartland mall le..we took her car..driven by his sis to east coast..budden tt time yong guan..jiayun..and their cousin nt here yet..dun feel like waitin for them so rent the bike first..$5 for 2 hrs..cycle cycle..cycle with meyer..cos taihong teachin darwin hw to cycle..as the road is narrow..i cycle in front of meyer..den i heard a loud crash behind miie..followed by the whinin of meyer..i stopped my bike den rush to her..knowin tt..obviously..meyer crashed..with a teenage guy..wearin orange-coloured de shirt..helped meyer to a bench..den called taihong dey all to buy plaster frm 7-11..they rush to us..bt it seems forever..meyer paste the plaster..den rest for awhile..okiie le..we continue playin..and den yg say dey reach le...den we wait for them at 7-11 dere...waited n waited..finally dey cum..we cycle again..haix..my bike de gear like siao le...kept cumin off...tt bike sux lohx..and must thank taihong for fixin my bike over n over again..although tt wasnt much of a help...bt newae...thx for tryin and gt ur hand dirty..hahax..den ermx..taihong mum called..sayin she cannot gt taihong on his fone..den aft taihong tok..eww..my handfone is contaminated bt his sweat..grrr... den tt darwin just noe hw to cycle..den wanna do stunts..he tried to cycle without usin his hands..and shouted " yong guan..kan hou mian.." unfortunately..he lost his balance...and fell down a grassy slope..haix..pathetic..bt injuries nt really as severe as meyer lahx...aft tt.. meyer again accidentally crash..omg..landed on the floor..lyin down..we all gathered around her..luckily taihong buy de plaster still hav...den giv meyer lohx...bt halfway..yong guan..taihong...jiayun..went away...to return their bikes as their time is up..den we..as in meyer...miie...darwin...went back when meyer feelin better..budden darwin de bicycle skills nt good enough..lost balance and bang..onto a lamp post..den ask called yg dey all to cum to us den ride our bikes back..cos darwin and meyer dun wanna ride le..exaggerated abit on their situation..if nt they wun cum fast de lahx..den yg came..onli him..dunno where the hell r the rest..sayin tt he chong here..usin his fastest speed..den feelin giddy..hahax..miie and meyer left..leavin yg to help darwin..we went back to the bicycle rental...cos our rental tym up le..den ermx..they wan miie to treat dem drink..den okiie lohx...treat dem...spendin a total of $8.50...waaaa...i broke le...den ermx...sht terrible happen...one of my fren..dun wanna mention who...accidentally knocked on a pole and fell..bt this is extremely bad..scratch the knee..and hand..and mouth..and teeth..aaaa...i dunn wanna think of it lahx..think le wanna cry le..haix..dun wanna say too much lahx..just really sad for this lohx..dunno hw this fren of my gonna tell parents..haix..all the best worx fren..and hope tt ur injuries will b ok in a few days..dun b sad horx..u will b fine derhs..mayb onli dose tt went dere noe who it is bahx..haix..aft tt...my fren went home..den the rest of us played by the seaside..cool..bt haix..so many accidents happen today..nt even in the mood to play le lohx..dunno why like tt lahx..just tired..and feel sad lohx..den went to macdonalds..and ate it's shaker fries..hmm..nice nice..went home aft tt..well..this vry happy day turns out to b one of the saddest lohx..haix..too many accidents le lahx..still gt one which is so de damn serious lohx..*sniff*sniff*..nt in the mood to do anything lahx..wanna hav a good night's sleep and hope to forgot eveything by tomorrow..which i noe is like so impossible..bt well..tts all for today...bye...

such a borin holiday....*sniff*..

2005-11-30T12:02:00.000+08:00
waaaa...such a borin holiday...everyday at home nth to do...wanna conference with them...bt dunno wart to chat lehx..sian sianx...hope cann go out to east coast tomorrow...bt dunno if mum allow...hope for the best lohx...and i really need the luck now...cos i really so de damn sian at home..nth to do...yesterday cousin came..played with her..nt exactly play lahx..went to playground...bt only chat...and ya...with meyer oso..cos she oso sian wart...sit dere chat lohx...cos nth to do...bout dose bo liao topic..think oni we three noe lahx..and dose aunties around us who heard the whole conversation...hahax...dortz....den went to hougang mall...do nth dere...just ist dere...tok tok...eat eat...drink drink...haix...now u understand why i say borin??this kinda life simply sux!!!online oso so little ppl online..den tt darwin cannot chat till 3...cos his mum at home...den yong guan oso cannot...for dunno wart reason lahx...meyer...though cann..bt nooone to chat with..taihong??haix..onli chattin with kia meng...arghhhhh....borin borin...sian sian holiday...

phew..tt's lucky..

2005-11-26T06:53:00.000+08:00
haix..just took my psle results..ermx..nt bad lahx...260..plus hmt den 263...this year's xinmin's top student is michelle!! with an aggregate score of 268..plus hmt den 270 le..nice siahx..onli one with four A* in our sch..congrats michelle!!actually thought i will b gettin real low derhs..bt lucky nt so bad..haix...complicated...these few days considerin wart schools to go...dun hav the least bit of ideas lehx...actually wanna go xinmin sec derhs..bt relatives all suggest tt i dun go..cos they say xinmin nt so good...haix..mum like wan miie to go st nicholas...I DUN WAN!! and the reason is simple..shd say are lahx..cos gt two reasons..one i will prefer not to sae...bt i think u all will noe de lahx..simple..the other one is tt tt is a girls school! hate it lohx..alot of ppl say inside alot of les derhx...eww...dun feel like goin lohx...haix..bt wart can i do ne??since they wan..tryin to argue lohx...lolx..bad gurl horx...hahax...dis few days nv go out..frenx almost all cann go out...bt miie ne??go out so sianx..cos noone to go out with..and dunno where to go oso...haix...bored bored bored...stuck at home...k lahx..dun wanna rite anymore...till nex tym...buai buaix...

all fun days r over..here cums a deadly one..

2005-11-24T08:20:00.000+08:00
haix..sianx sianx..yesterday went to junction 8 to watch harry potter and the goblet of fire..hmm..nice show siahx..went dere at about 12..actually suppose to meet at 11.30 with jinglin and meyer..bt haix...late again..typical miie..jinglin already bought the tickets le..so we pay her to money and went to the neoprint shop to tk neoprints..hahax..tts wart we alwaes do..den walk pass popular and saw desrene and beverley..hahax..it's nt coincidence derhs..we plan to meet dere fer harry potter derhs..hmm...feelin hungry so all of us went to hav our lunch at pasta mania..ordered sum kinda spaghetti..forgot de name le..aft tt we gt plenty of tym..since the ticket we bought was at 3.30..we shop around j8..den ltr i received a call frm darwin..saes tt he is cumin to eat at j8...den miie and meyer went to look for him lohx..ermx..met at KFC..den sat down and eat..and i've learnt a lesson..nv to joke with darwin when he is eatin...and worse still..drinkin...hahax..i bet onli sum of euu can understand..den took neoprints..we forced him to tk derhs..cos he saw no boys inside the shop..den shy to go in..haix..bt in the end still took le..bt the product nt really nice siahx..hahax...den he must go hum..cos mum scold..den we hav to go in the cinema le..den saw the movie till around 6 plus..shumei and beverley hav to go hum first...so miie..meyer..jinglin..and desrene went to eat at food court..ermx..nth much..den went hum by bus 55 lohx..haix..another day was over..and today is my death..PSLE result takin...the day i dreaded most...hw to survive??haix..just hope tt my results r good...den cann go to gd secondary sch lohx..haix...tts wart everyone will hope for..hmm..scared scared..dunno wart i will do if my results r poor...hmm..dun think beta..think le wanna die le...k lahx..wanna gt ready myself..and my mood..for the result takin ltr le..for all the pri6 readin this..best of luck in ur results worx..nt forgettin miie.. good luck..tt's wart i need most now..kiez..remember to tell miie ur results worx...till next tym..cyaz...byyeeexx..

yesterday's rehearsal was a total disaster..

2005-11-12T10:00:00.000+08:00
well..yesterday..the full dress rehearsal in sch was lyk a total disaster..i wore a dress up to my knee..den a blue sleeveless top..with checkerbox pattern..den a black and white headband..look so funny lohx..haix..den the rehearsal..makes miie wanna seep lohx..all the repeated stuff..and lyk so boin...kept sayin things wrong frm miie de script..just can't seem to memorise it well..and kept losin things tt teacher gimme..so muddle-headed..sianx..den stayed back aft sch..to go to grassroots to rehearse again..sianx lohx..repeat again...bt gd thing der gt aircon..if nt gonna b so hot again..make lotsa changes to my script again..nth really special..den aft tt miie and farah and darwin go buy bubble tea to drink..haix..his runnin horx..dunno wart to sae...hahhx..den ermx..nth really special le lahx..just tt i m feelin confused again..dunno wart's wrong with miie..i thought everything was settled...bt why is my heart feelin this way..the way it shd nt b feelin..cann i c the right way?? haix..hopefully tym will allow things to pass and melt away...troubles will b forgotten..and evrything will b fine..bt will this day ever cumm??

ohh...wart a day!!

2005-11-10T20:21:00.000+08:00
today went to heritage trail..nth de lahx..at the bus..i made a big mistake..i opened the packet of Ricola shweet in front of those greedy frenx..within a minute...or less den tt..my pathetic sweet was left to bout less den half..and all thx to em lohx..ppl lyk weishan..meyer..jinglin..sophia..and those bhind de sia..rmb wart is the meann of punctuation..especially commas..dunn anyhw sae..reach the museum and den onli hear the guy tok tok tok..all the shyte lahx..we walk to lotsa places..the registery of marriage..(meyer's fave)..fort cannin..previous national library..and the rest lahx..the guy tok so much..wun run out of saliva de mehx??so borin lohx..den finally..we cann go hum..tt was abt 12 plus le..we go back..den i gt to gt ready to go to holy innocent @ 2.30...to gt the cert lahx..b4 tt went to eat with jinglin..meyer...wanching..@ the hougang pt food court..den walk back to sch..bout 2 plus...den saw edmund..joshua...shazani..hahhx..meyer's dead..den aft tt went le lohx..to holy innocent i mean..den saw miss gwee..miss koh and sum fellow sch mates dere..promotin our sch de comp software or sth lyk tt i think..we played the games lohx..12 games in all..just to gt a worthless ruler..den gib the ruler to darwin..a guy in our sch...cos he asked fer it..hmm..den we tk the refreshments..omg..the guy frm 6wis..jungkai..instead of just tkin a packet of drink..he took 3 or probably more den tt..so funny lohx..den cam back to sch..close to 6 le..rainin and nv bring umbrella..so waited @ the sch de busstop..for 112..with darwin..cos he oso takin 112..we tok lohx..den haix...he called sum1..den ask miie to tok..tellin miie tt tt was meiyi..hahhx...so funny lohx..i din noe meiyi sound so diff on fone..wadever..i dun care..and i dun feel lyk sayin out the whole thing..darwin..i noe u understand wart i mean..den we chat chat..abt all sorts of things lahx..ermx..den waited for 153 with him..den i go hum le lohx..haix..nth special..all things lyk the same..and yahhs..i known a 92 years old person today..hahhx...haix..tomorrow still hav full dress rehearsal..to the whole sch and @ grassroots..must do the fake smile again..so fake lohx..sianx..well..gtg le...till next tym..byee...

haix..tired frm rehearsin..

2005-11-07T15:00:00.000+08:00
todae go sch..hear pei hwa and sengkang sec sch tok..haix...nt listenin attentively lahx..who cares anyway..ermx..den go back to class..miis goh nt here..so miss gwee took aft..hmm..nth much lahx..ask mr khoo to change miie de stars..den go prefect duty lohx..aft recess..stayed back in hall..den go music rm for a short briefin of the rehearsal of the Xinphony of Stars thingy..actually no needa brief de...is cos dere is sum kinda talk in hall..occupyin the hall..den cannot rehearse..aft a long wait...we started the rehearsal one 11 plus(which was actually suppose to b @ 10.30)..haix..laggin lohx..cannot go back class..and everything seem so confusin..so dunno wart to do dere lohx..haix..no facial expression le..so TIRED!! k lahx..stop here lohx..byeeee....

first posttie...

2005-11-02T19:53:00.000+08:00
hii everyone..this is my first post in this blog..well..first..thx to THOSE tt help miie in this blog..i couldn't hav manage without ur help..thx! i gort nth to sae lahx..just hope tt everything will b smooth-sailin for miie..and tt *toot* cann dun b so strict lohx..this cannot..tt cannot...so bad derhs..haix..nbm..yahhs..rmb worxx..evryone..anyone..link miie..and tag b4 u leave...buaixx...